A long sad story

[GarnetAlexandria]

I really don't know how I feel at this point, I'll just get that out of the way. I came out to my, now, ex-girlfriend about 2 years ago, she promptly left me. I've been hiding ever since, I knew this day would come. Now I'm backed in a corner and I can't get out... I'm 1 month from moving out and my parents are invading my privacy picking apart my life because I'm depressed and they can't figure out why. Now I'm afraid to dress up even at night. I told a close friend or two about it but... they don't seem to even acknowledge it from day to day that is. I don't know what to do and to be honest I feel it may be easier just to end this all and jump off a bridge.

[V M]

Don't give up... Especially don't give up on yourself

All these other things will pass in time

Now is the the time to look forward and make forward progress for yourself and others

No need to jump off the bridge when you can happily dance across to the other side

{{{HUGS}}}

- Virginia

[Cindy]

It isn't an easy journey but it is tolerable. Find your comfort zone for know and work on it. Depression is an issue see your family Dr for treatment. It's difficult to make sensible decisions when you are depressed.
It is your life and one worth living, many of us have been in the same situation of feeling there is no hope, no chance and no joy. There is. Grasp it and run with it. And of course you are not alone, you are family and we are here for you at any time.

Hugs
Cindy

[Laura Emily]

It certainly isn't an easy journey. I've been finding out that myself. I certainly would never think of giving up, though. I know that isn't the answer. The advice given here by these lovely ladies is spot on. Just move forward and keep the faith!

[Janet_Girl]

DO you have a gender therapist?  That would be a place to start.

[gennee]

Garnett, the rough times won't last forever. Congrats to you on coming out. As was suggested a good gender therapist is a start. There will be bumps along the way but you'll on your own soon. You'll be able to spread your wings.


Gennee

[annyms]

You can't give up!! You will have rough times but it feels so good when you overcome them. The satisfaction outweighs the sadness. Don't give up

[wayz]

Just don't care, be yourself
Get the confidence
Thumbs up,

[JJ]

It's hard. But it WILL get better.

What would happen if you told your parents? Only you can know if it is time but they are already worried and know something is wrong. It might be a relief for them to know rather than worry.

When I told my best friend of 35 years I carefully didn't mention names for my situation. She is conservative and wouldn't have heard anything I said after I used those labels. I just talked about the difference between what I felt and what I looked like. And gave the latest scientific evidence-the difference in brain scans, birth defect or anomaly slant. There was no problem and everything is actually better between us because I am happier. Except she doesn't really want me to discuss it with her.  Okay-I understand she needs to process probably.

I explained the same way pretty much to my 10 year old granddaughter and just got a big hug.

The thing is by ending it all you harm everyone around you -and those who love you most hurt the most-far more than telling them will harm them.

But only you can decide. You have the right to live your life as God made you.

JJ

[Coppélia]

I tried killing myself once (half-assed job, too scared of death) and my mom cried so hard that I've never even thought of it again. Your suffering may end if you die, but then everyone connected to you has to suffer your loss.

Plus girlfriends are replaceable You haven't changed personally, you simply brought to light something she didn't know about you. If she doesn't love you enough to deal with it then that's her problem. I'm not trying to say that your pain means nothing, I know very well how much a break up hurts. Eventually, though, you'll find someone better.

As for your friends, they probably just haven't seen enough evidence to believe it. Just be yourself, people will accept you. Not everyone, and maybe not the people that you want to accept you, but if no one else then at the very least you have everyone on this site that will accept you.

[wayz]

I feel a bit different nowadays.
Definitely I would continue my hormones, if my family, surrounding and everything went my way.
but now I am doing so much gym. That I feel way better as a man than I felt before

Try this
Stop music, TV, drinking, smoking, take a big break from entertainment
work out everyday, sleep 10 hrs minimum and stay in the balcony or somewhere where u can see the sky

When I broke up with my first gf. I took myself as dead, and started new life just for family and friends and GOD. suicide will take you to hell forever.

So live only for GOD, and only and keep living... oneday the scars will heal.
Think you were born to be single, and u never had a gf... force in your head

Onething I have realised is true solution was GOD, entertainment is not recommended in most religions, and entertainment cultivates non practical romance in our heart, which brings this sort of disasters.
The world was so simple before, you dont need to fall in love, you really like someone you can get married to her if she says yes, and u guys live forever together, you first love eventually turns to be your wife. and now in todays world, men and women on average lives 58% of their life single in western world. Thats 100% miserable