Girl->-bleeped-<-s?

[BoyDani]

I just learned a new term. The term is, of course, girl ->-bleeped-<-. For those of you who were like me and not enlightened to the meaning, it is roughly a female who is only attracted to gay males and fantasizes of being a gay male... Dear God, if I knew this had existed I would have identified and known what I was so much earlier on! Although, I'm still strange with accepting myself, I'm working on it, haha.

I mean, I can't be the only one who ooh'd and aww'd over the New Romantic movement and movies like Party Monster, Rocky Horror Picture Show, and all that is camp and delightfully gay... (Watched Rocky Horror when I was 12- life changing experience, haha.) I've always identified with gay men before straight men, and I've only ever admired one women as a rolemodel and idol for me. And this isn't to mention I adore, adore Slash and Yaoi (sorry if you don't know what those are  ) and have for years, which is where most girl->-bleeped-<-s realize their problem...

Of course, I like straight men quite a bit as well, but never could fancy someone too much that wouldn't reciprocate; Hell, it's hard enough finding a gay guy to be with.

How do you guys feel about the term? Just a curious young person who feels a bit cheated he could've realized his dysphoria long before watching a Pete Burns video and being insanely jealous over him .

(You guys are a great community, btw. I was worried I would have trouble talking, but you guys are all very open and kind and I am very comfortable. You're all wonderful.)

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[zombiesarepeaceful]

So you're saying you're not trans, but a girl->-bleeped-<-?

[BoyDani]

So you're saying you're not trans, but a girl->-bleeped-<-?

No, no, I am. I just think that knowing this term would have made it easier to realize my dysphoria. I just threw it off because I liked girly stuff and guys and assumed I was just a girl who hated themselves for no reason they could understand. I think knowing and realizing this term could have opened paths for me.

[Devin87]

While I love the idea of having something like that to identify with, I do have a huge problem with the word "girl" in the title.  I'm not a girl and so how can I be a girl ->-bleeped-<-?  Aren't I just a plain ol' ->-bleeped-<-?

[BoyDani]

While I love the idea of having something like that to identify with, I do have a huge problem with the word "girl" in the title.  I'm not a girl and so how can I be a girl ->-bleeped-<-?  Aren't I just a plain ol' ->-bleeped-<-?

Same here. I'm a plain old ->-bleeped-<- anyday and every day, I'm not a girl. (Some girl->-bleeped-<-s transition btw, so I don't understand why they would identify with someone girl in the title, either. It would annoy me to bits.)

[zombiesarepeaceful]

Yeah.....I don't like the girl part either. Then again, I cringe and refuse to say female and girl and breasts and acknowledge that I have anything but a penis downstairs, so...

[BoyDani]

There's the acronym '->-bleeped-<-' as well, for 'Female Anime Guy' - women who are obsessed with bishonen anime slash fic and fantasise about being a beautiful gay anime boy having sex with other beautiful gay anime boys. Many claim to be transgender, but live exclusively as cis women.

I've never heard of that. I have to say, I really don't agree with this one, it just rubs me the wrong way, I don't know why.

[cynthialee]

I like the term.
I ussed to identify as a guydyke before transition.

[BoyDani]

Prolly because you're not one of them?

Yes, that is probably a major factor, but something about it seems very vain to me that it just bothers me. It is just me though, I can be strange about things. Sorry for the hassle.

[GnomeKid]

not one of them...

but party monster is easily in my top favorite 3 movies of all time.

[Roro]

There's the acronym '->-bleeped-<-' as well, for 'Female Anime Guy' - women who are obsessed with bishonen anime slash fic and fantasise about being a beautiful gay anime boy having sex with other beautiful gay anime boys. Many claim to be transgender, but live exclusively as cis women.

This has always creeped me out pretty badly. Not to mention pissed me right off because actually being trans and liking yaoi (on rare occasion) is way too close for the untrained eye to see. I'm betting most of those types don't have the usual freak outs over being in a body that doesn't fit like it should.  I don't really see many people on y! gallery slink away and shut down their accounts because looking at that many boys together makes them feel horribly inadequate/envious/seethingly jealous... like I did. lol

Posting as a boy... a gay boy... that happens to have too many holes. Not as a girl->-bleeped-<- or a whatever. Wee.

[BoyDani]

Haha, I tend to not get jealous because I look at bara and I could NEVER expect to be like any of those guys. But I get jealous very, very often when it comes to singers that I'm not particularly in love with. (I love my y!gallery account, I could never live without it! *sigh* I have a bit of a problem, lol.)

[Lachlann]

This has always creeped me out pretty badly. Not to mention pissed me right off because actually being trans and liking yaoi (on rare occasion) is way too close for the untrained eye to see. I'm betting most of those types don't have the usual freak outs over being in a body that doesn't fit like it should.  I don't really see many people on y! gallery slink away and shut down their accounts because looking at that many boys together makes them feel horribly inadequate/envious/seethingly jealous... like I did. lol

Posting as a boy... a gay boy... that happens to have too many holes. Not as a girl->-bleeped-<- or a whatever. Wee.

Not everyone has horrible dysphoria sexually. I mean, I can watch porn pretty easily without feeling dysphoric, but it doesn't mean I don't wish I had a penis. I don't feel inadequate at all just because I can't penetrate a girl like a normal guy, however, I do get frustrated because I feel it would be a lot better for me to have a real penis.

So there are transguys who have no problem with this stuff. Granted, not all of those people on that site might be trans, but not every trans person has issues with envy, being inadequate or jealousy. I know I don't have a big issue with any of those. At least not sexually.

[Roro]

Actually I have zero problem with most of it. The sexuality side is YAY sex. I mean I can't deny it. I just get to a point in dysphoria land on occasion where looking at y! makes me feel even worse about myself. Maybe it's overwhelmed? I don't know.

Take everything I say for like the next week with a grain of salt. I've not had a cigarette in two days and can hardly be held responsible for making sense... or not.

Though I took down and emptied my gallery, I still came back in about two months and got back into it. I just have to remind myself not to go look on days I'm already feeling like poo.

[Lachlann]

You draw then?

[Roro]

Draw and write. Ayup. Both very poorly I might add. 

[Lachlann]

Draw and write. Ayup. Both very poorly I might add. 

I swear we need a list of all the artists here, haha.

[BoyDani]

I draw, paint, and write . I never finish anything I start, though :/ I anyone wants to, look up JessicaWonka on deviantart. It's an old name, blah, but it works.

[Roro]

I swear we need a list of all the artists here, haha.

There's something in art that just makes me feel better. In writing I figured out a lot about myself. From the trans thing to the fact that I'm not ACTUALLY crazy, I just have little seizures all day. In drawing a lot can be expressed, though I don't draw as much as I used to. A friend and I have this plan to take over the world with art that portrays penises. I feel we're growing close to such a goal. lol. My dear friend, she rocks.

If someone wants my y! name send me a pm, I would rather not broadcast it all over the place. If you don't want to see or read about some really graphic/out there/kinky gay porn, don't bother. If you expect quality, don't bother either. lol

That word girl->-bleeped-<- though. I've been repeating it all through dinner. My man keeps looking at me like there's something growing out of my head. I should probably stop repeating it over and over again, trying to make it fit in my vocabulary. I think it just wont.

[elvistears]

Roro: I love dick art!  I have been making little clay penii and painting them exciting colours.