Worst Day

[Hurtfulsplash]

I had one of the worst days of my freakin life today, I hate venting like this but I have to get it out, I guess I'm a hypocrite. I don't have any family to deal with except one person, just happens to be the one person who is genetically closest to me, my twin, and I just feel like I shouldn't even exist right now. Apparently I made her feel abandoned recently, so she decided to keep it in until today and when I decided to give her a friendly call I got an earfull that I wasn't expecting. I had a plan for my future, it was kinda built around her, since she asked me to move closer to her, but now I'm not wanted in her town. I feel so f***ing hollow and with no path ahead of me, I have to remake all of my plans. This has nothing to do with my transition, it just adds more to an already full plate. Blah blah blah...

[Hurtfulsplash]

I'm feeling a lot better after having slept on it and sobered up. It seems like this might have worked out for the best, I'm considering moving to a smaller town, she can have her damn city. I actually feel a little more hopeful about my future now and since we've always fought not living too close to her will be less stressful. The fight seems to stem from my not always agreeing with her choices and how I deal with our fights, which is usually kicking her out. Sometime I just need my space from her or I'll lose my mind. I'm quit content to leave her be for now, I don't want to deal with the stress, but I hope she realizes that our relationship might not ever be the same.
Thanks for listening to my rant.

[justmeinoz]

Things usually look better after a good nights sleep, especially if we have had a few drinks.  Hope it all works out.

If you can find a smaller town that is accepting of people who are a little different, you could well be a lot better off.  In a lot of smaller places if you are prepared to put in an effort with community projects people are more likely to judge you by what you actually do , rather than by assumptions. It is generally a lot easier to make friends than in a large city too.