Sometimes I wanna give up...

[accord03]

I thought I was strong but for the last 2 days, I've hit rock bottom. I'm not happy with myself and body. I'm not happy that I can't impregnate my woman, I can't pleasure her the way I want to with a real functioning penis and it's highly possible that I'll never get that opportunity in this lifetime. I just wanna be reborn and come back as a bio male. I'm thinking about disappearing from my GF. She's accepting and willing to spend her whole life with me but I can't provide her things she deserves. Alot of girls has said to me that it's not about the penis or having bio children, it's the way and the man you be for her but it's not enough. I know. She deserves someone who can give her a bio child and start a real family together. I don't want to drag her along in this journey of mine. I don't know what to do anymore... 

[Hermione01]

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling down. I'm sure your girlfriend has thought it all through, and she's still with you, so that's saying something.
There are many couples that cannot have children so don't despair, there will be time enough to start a family in the future.  Just plan on getting your self-esteem back, maybe give therapy a try if you haven't already.

[Just Kate]

I feel this way with my wife every time I'm reminded of the things I can not provide her due to my choices in life.  I have to remind myself, and sometimes she has to remind me too, that she married me for ME and that she knew what she was getting in to when she married me.  she loves me for me, and that means ALL of me, even the bad parts.  Sure she wishes things were different, but believes its an acceptable price to pay to be espoused to me.  I'm grateful for her acceptance.  I hope you can be grateful of your girl's as well.  Most importantly though, don't make choices for her (like suddenly leaving her under the guise you are doing it "for" her), let her in on your heart, your feelings, and you might find you have less to worry about than you think.

[accord03]

Hermione - Thankyou. Yeah. She must of thought about it already cause she is from a really religious background and even through that, she has decided to walk beside me. I guess all I can do is be a great guy for her and make the most of it.

Interalia - Thankyou too. It's nice to know I'm not the only one who's going through this. I'm glad she is supportive and you're both coping it. I guess we just have to look at the bio males who can't have children so I guess we should be grateful and keep reminding ourselves. Yeah, you're right. I shouldn't decide things for her. I guess I should just open up and keep moving forward.


And I have another problem: My girl has been asked her hand in marriage by many guys. She told me that she's waiting for me and whenever I ask her if she's ready to get engaged and spend her life with me she says a sweet Yes but she says I have to ask her family for permission first and I don't know whether she's for real or she really does want me to go ask them and if she wants me to, should I? I'm scared her family would say No...