New One from Australia

[Little Darkling]

Hey everyone.

[I've been awake for 40 hours, forgive me if I seem weird in this post?]

I'm a transgendered male-to-female actress living in Melbourne, Australia. I'll be starting hormone therapy in a few short weeks if things go according to plan, thanks to the grace of the Gender Dysphoria clinic.

I'm aged nineteen, and after leaving highschool have had the freedom to start expressing myself without the constraints of a psychopathic microcosm that watches my every move! : D

I love writing, reading, acting and singing. Video games take up too much of my life for my own health. @_@

I've got a rather gothic-esque lifestyle...all-black, liquid eyeliner, mesh tights and voodoo dolls. I'm not a very dark person at heart, though, I can make friends with just about anybody.

So yeah, I've got a group of tight-knit friends that know. I attend acting courses once a week, and all the actors there know, so I get to spend all my time in girl-mode during those times, so I get one day a week to be myself without constraints.

My mother knows. She was very obnoxious & irritating over the entire thing, and she told my older sister without my consent, but my older sister's handling it far better, so I'm not terribly upset.

My mother's pretty much setting me an ultimatum to tell my father by the end of this weekend or she'll tell him herself, so it's kind of put me in a troubled spot. He loves his children but he's also very aggressive & easily swings to rage, and has always been disappointed in me not being the son he wanted [I was born the only son out of three children].

I'm packing a bag full of clothes & stuff tonight, I have about 120 dollars to my name and some stuff I can sell in a pinch in the event he loses his cool at me when I'm forced to tell him tonight.

Acting class is tomorrow, so if I have to I can just walk, pull an all-nighter and show up in the morning to class tomorrow and hopefully find a temporary place to stay...they're good people and they've been very supportive so far!

I've never really joined a community like this before...I tend not to last well in forum communities. I always feel very much like the 'new kid' trying to find a place in a place full of cliques & status, but seeing as this is a place bound by a common thread, I'm hoping I can dispense & receive useful advice. :p

Thanks in advance to any who welcome me!

[confused]

hello there , welcome
first of all , i'm sorry your mom acted like she did , i don't know what to say about her but anyway
i really hope your dad don't act bad about it and just suffice with advice and accept it eventually
although you seem like a really good at heart girl , and it shows in the way you talk , and although you seem like the girl who can handle anything and still be interesting and funny rather than sad , but i know how you feel and i just wanna tell you that some way or another  eventually everything gonna be ok as long as you know what you want and going for it ( i too have not slept for long time , like 30 hours , so don't get surprised if i say anything weird)
anyway , i wish you best of luck , and i really hope everything goes ok , and keep us posted
the place here is pretty supportive and informative
welcome , new friend  (probably should have said that much earlier but anyway)

[Little Darkling]

I appreciate the kind words. :]

Look forward to being here...!

[Cindy]

Hi LD,

I'm in Adelaide and there are a number of people here from Australia and even some from  Melbourne . I know you are going through a difficult time and you can pm me at any time if you wish. If you wish to, let me know on the board and I'll send my address since you cannot access them at the moment (takes 15 posts). We all struggle but you are moving forward. Your Mum's reaction is sadly rather normal. She has lost a 'son' and it takes time for her to realise that she has gained a daughter. Tell your Dad if you can. He may be more approachable. He knows you are in acting classes so he may think you are Gay anyway (even though you may not be and if you are it doesn't matter a koala's fart) and may just accept that you are what you are.

Stay steady, try and get some sleep and guess what? YOU ARE NO LONGER ALONE. We are here and we understand what life for TG people is like.

Hugs Darling

Cindy 

[nmason]

Hi and welcome from South Australia
There is a large network of us here in Australia ready to give all support, where ever you live. Like Cindy said you are not alone

[Hermione01]

Hi and welcome Little Darkling,
Sorry your mum is giving you ultimatums, talk about heaping the pressure on. I hope everything will not be as bad as you expect, your dad may be more tolerant than you think. I'm glad your sister is more considerate and being a friend. I'm in NSW. 

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Little Darkling,

Welcome to our little family. Over 4800 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.

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Plan for the worst and hope for the best.  My advise is to call friends, explain you might need a place to stay for a bit.  And then tell Dad.

Hugs and Love,
Janet

[Birdie]

Oh another Melbournian! That makes two of us!

Welcome Darkling! 

I hope everything with your dad goes okay. I was terrified when I told mine, but in the end things were okay. Dads can sometimes take a little bit of extra time to adjust, so if things get a bit sticky, don't give up on him too soon.

I hope the Monash Clinic are treating you well! I'm not sure who they have brought in to take over from Dr Kennedy and Dr Koutsogiannis, but I hope you have better experiences with the new clinic than people seemed to be having with the old one.

Oh, and congratulations on the hormones! Those few weeks you need to wait until you can start are going to fly by!

*hugs*

Welcome to Susan's! 

[Cindy]

Sorry Birdie,
I really think you need to change your lipstick colour. Emu Red I reckon.


Hugs
How are you going

Cindy

[justmeinoz]

Welcome aboard, from Northern Victoria. I hope your family situation works out ok, and you can live the life you want. 

[Nathan.]

Welcome to Susans 

[Little Darkling]

Thanks to everyone for the lovely welcome.

In the end, I've decided it's best if I write things out in a letter to my father for him to read. I don't have the spirit to say it to him directly, but I need to tell him in a more personal way than having someone else do it for me...so I'll go with the letter option.

Thanks again, everyone. :]