after reading around here...i think ive pinpointed the issue.

[saint]

I can really relate to a lot of stuff on this thread.  There is a new agey saying, (not sure who it is originally by) "I am a spritiual being having a human experience"; I see my essentialbeing/spirit as being genderless, I am just inhabiting a male body for a little while, and as it wasn't made-to-measure there are gonna be times it doesn't quite fit properly 

I used to get a lot of dissociative type feelings, (in part from uneducated use of psychedelics in my teens) and they used to really freak me out.  But these days I see them as just another feeling or emotion or mood, they are a welcome reminder of the far-out-ness of existence!

[IHPUN]

I like this thread!  I think I have similar feelings; I would also like to experience consciousness beyond the confines of a human body.  We live in a time when this seems to be possible in principle, but is not yet within reach.  I have trouble dealing with a lot of the mundane details of my life right now because of thoughts like this, but of course we have to work with what we have.