I can really relate to a lot of stuff on this thread. There is a new agey saying, (not sure who it is originally by) "I am a spritiual being having a human experience"; I see my essentialbeing/spirit as being genderless, I am just inhabiting a male body for a little while, and as it wasn't made-to-measure there are gonna be times it doesn't quite fit properly

I used to get a lot of dissociative type feelings, (in part from uneducated use of psychedelics in my teens) and they used to really freak me out. But these days I see them as just another feeling or emotion or mood, they are a welcome reminder of the far-out-ness of existence!