I would like to know if I'm not going crazy -
My endocrinologist will only see me maybe 2-3 times a year. Every time I schedule an appointment, I have to wait some 3 or 4 months before I finally see my doctor. The reason this is a problem for me is because I have absolutely no one around to talk about medical issues relating to my transition for months at a time, and that feels very isolating.
Furthermore, I've never transitioned into another gender so I'll obviously never know what to expect, no matter how much research I do. With that said, I've been on hormones for 2 years already and throughout that time I've gone through periods where I've 'regressed' - as in for example I would grow breast for a while and then they would literally shrink - drastically.
In short I feel as if I've made very little to no progress whatsoever. Right now if you'd saw me, I do not look like someone who has been on hormones for the past 24 months. When I last talked to my doctor some two months ago, I was told that my hormone levels were low. I'm not a doctor, but it doesn't look like she's done anything whatsoever about that, and even if she planned on doing so NEXT time I see her, there's a huge latency problem when it comes to handling medical issues. What if something had gone seriously wrong or fatal?
It has been frustrating me in ways that I cannot describe. I feel as if I'm slowly sinking to the bottom of the ocean, cold and alone with no one who seems to care within a 100 mile radius. Am I weird for being frustrated. Thank you in advanced for your time.