Disappointing.

[MRH]

I was so happy when I was browsing ebay and found a layered t-shirt of my favourite band. It looked great and so I bought it. I recieved it just now and i've put it on but when I look in the mirror I feel disappointed. I hate my body. I see so many great clothes, buy them and then I never look how I want. I was really jealous of a manniquin in topman once because it could pull of this jacket better than me. I just have too much of a feminine body. It doesnt help that I have large breasts and I dont have a binder. If I look down and see myself in the t-shirt it doesnt look so bad but when I see myself in a mirror I can really see what my body is like. Plus it just makes me look butch. I want to be seen as a male, not some butch woman.
My boyfriend borrows some of my clothes and he looks so good in them. Thats what I want. I know that it still might not look right even if I do become male. Some clothes I like might not suit me but at least it will look better. I will see a more masculine body instead of these womanly curves.

[accord03]

I feel you on the shirts. I like so many tops and bought many but gave up on it already cause of my chest. It's just so effing annoying but hopefully chest surgery would make me feel alot better.  But I'm happy I don't look like a butch cause of my binder but that doesn't work much. I want it to be straight out flat. Got to live with it for now. Also pisses me off how some guys can't even buy a decent shirt and make the most of it. LOL.

I am pretty sure you'll look better when you start to transition. Your body image would change and become more masculine so it'll suit the shirts.

[Sinnyo]

I have the same thing, but in reverse, and it's interesting that you highlight mannequins. Town centres are the toughest place I can be precisely because I'm envying them all. It's dysphoria central in those shop windows, and it's that which made me realise I really had a problem.

There are some ways to dress around physical shapes. It is harder for men, because while women have access to so many different styles of clothes, there's also a lot of advice out there for X, Y and Z body types. I hope you'll forgive my comparison, but there are some (cis)men who have to dress around so-called 'man-boobs'. Loose t-shirts or vests and the layering of a jacket or waistcoat can help to flatten your body, and binding would probably help you out too. Not that either of those options is a comfortable one now that we're in summer - I'm kicking myself for trying to transition now, as corsetry, chest and possible hip padding are going to leave me half-dead in this heat!