Hello one and all.
I've not been here in a while. Been thinking about things my position in life all the stuff I used to do in my youth. Thinking back to the time I first thought about myself as female. All the things I did in secrecy, puting on pantyhose, pantys, and my moms dress's and shoes. I couldnt do it all the time as I got caught a few times so I dressed up when no one was around. I felt complete when I was dressed as female. I wanted to be with the girls more than the boys. Girls facinated me. I wanted to do the things they did because girls seemed to be more in tune with there feelings and played together as true friends. I never got along much with boys. I used to get teased a lot by girls but in a friendly manner, not in the rough and tumble way with boys. didn't really mind it at all. In fact I liked being teased by the girls. It in some way made me feel connected. I always had been attracted to girls not sexually but more like best friends. I never really dated in the traditional way. Just meet with a girl at some point and stayed friends. I dreamed of meeting with girls that liked to do the things I liked and that we would do those things like friends alone with other girls. I've been pretty much quiet and reserved and a little withdrawn much of my life. Never really socialized with boys and even less with girls. I never dated any girls. Only once and I was so overjoyed at finding a girl I could do things with. It didn't last. I think I overdid it a little with wanting to do all things together. I think she took it as something of a sexual advance. I really didnt know at the time. I guess my over enthuiasem overwhelmed her. Sorry this kinda long winded I was just thinking about my life as it stands. The more I think about it the more I want to live my life as female. I think about it everday. I have been slowly replacing my wardrobe with womens clothes and purging most of my old stuff that doent fit anymore since I have slimed down. I like the way I look in womens jeans,slacks, and shoes. Womens shoes always facinated me.
Well anyway I just wanted to say hi to all. I love Susan's and everyone here.
Owen
Love being female
