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Follow up on my getting kicked out.

Started by CrazyTina, July 06, 2010, 04:52:56 PM

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Debra

Hey girl I hope things work out for you! Being forced to live like that will suck but I guess if it will get you to where you can be you...it will be worth it.

Ugh to parents like that but i can relate =/ Thank God I was on my own already when I came out

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tekla

It's used to almost be a mantra that you didn't come out unless, or until, you were willing to lose everything. 
FIGHT APATHY!, or don't...
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Nigella

Quote from: tekla on July 07, 2010, 10:15:54 AM
It's used to almost be a mantra that you didn't come out unless, or until, you were willing to lose everything.

That is so true Tekla, at least it was for me. However as I have said things are sooooooo good and brill now its unbelievable.

Stardust
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CrazyTina

Okay. I am packing up and sorting things that need to go to GF and things that I need to hold onto myself. I am going to go home in a short while and will not be back online until I have gone through with this. Wish me luck.s
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Nigella

Quote from: Christina. on July 07, 2010, 03:27:34 PM
Okay. I am packing up and sorting things that need to go to GF and things that I need to hold onto myself. I am going to go home in a short while and will not be back online until I have gone through with this. Wish me luck.s

My heart goes out to you and keep focused on the future. Its not that far away. Be thinking and praying for you.

Stardust
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Janet_Girl

You are in our thoughts and prayers, Christina.
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tekla

Yep I am a carpenter for a live action theatre. I build and paint sets. I also do lighting for the plays, hand and focus lights, etc.

Try to get on with IATSE in your area, they usually have an overhire list of people who are not members but who have the skills to work at that level when needed.  I'm off to do Paul McCartney this weekend and its going to be minimum of $300 for an 8 hour day, but I'm guessing by Sunday, with the overtime and double time I'll make over $1K a day (for an 18 hour day).*  If that's the work you want to do, find out what you'll need to get into the apprentice program.  Doing those six years and coming out as a journeyman is going to be a much better investment of time and money than an AA degree in it.

* - getting to see the show for free is just a bonus.
FIGHT APATHY!, or don't...
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CrazyTina

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tekla

Bet I get paid more than most programmers in the Bay Area.  I make (or could if I worked, and I try hard not to) more than I did as a full professor in a major college.  The best thing about production work is they can't off-shore it.  20 years ago there were programing jobs up the yin-yang in the Bay Area, and they are still there I guess, it's just that they are on the Bay of Bengal and not the San Francisco Bay.
FIGHT APATHY!, or don't...
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CrazyTina

Okay, I am at home in my bed under my fan with my cats in my lap.  :angel:

I am going underground and living as a tom-boy for the next few months.  ::)

Parents are happy that I am going to conform to their wishes so I am allowed to live here.


:)
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Britney_413

I wish you the best. Good luck and please keep us posted as updates arise. As I said before, keep a level head as best as possible despite the negative circumstances. Another way of putting it is lay low as long as you can until you can get out of there. Take care. Britney
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Kristyn

Roll the Dice
by Charles Bukowski

if you're going to try, go all the
way.
otherwise, don't even start.

if you're going to try, go all the
way. this could mean losing girlfriends,
wives, relatives, jobs and
maybe your mind.

go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or
4 days.
it could mean freezing on a
park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your
endurance, of
how much you really want to
do it.
and you'll do it
despite rejection and the
worst odds
and it will be better than
anything else
you can imagine.

if you're going to try,
go all the way.
there is no other feeling like
that.
you will be alone with the
gods
and the nights will flame with
fire.

do it, do it, do it.
do it.

all the way
all the way.
you will ride life straight to
perfect laughter,
it's the only good fight
there is.
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Debra


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Janet_Girl

Stay Strong Tina.  It won't be that long and you can go forward.  And remember you are in my thoughts.
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CrazyTina

I originally was deleting my account because I didn't think it was good of me to be so imposing on all of you. You all are spending so much time on me, whether you are posting to help me, or just thinking about me.

I feel like I don't deserve to be held in such regard by you all. I am suffering from depression right now. And I guess I was acting pretty rashly in deleting my account.

I need a therapist and I need one now. All the times I remember to call and make an appt. they are closed though. The lady said to call her cellphone if it is an emergency, but since I have never been to her before, I don't think she would like that very much.

Also, I am going to go back on the IRC. I left in a huff there too. And I started blocking peoples phone numbers and deleting them from my address book. Now I have to figure out how to unblock said people before they hate me forever.

I need help. Nothing else is more important at this time. Then I need a place to live. Then I need hormones, and can start living my life the way I should have since the beginning.
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Janet_Girl

You are family now, so get use to us worrying about you.  ;D

Stick around especially now that you have had to be there.  We are and will be your support.
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Britney♥Bieber

Tina I totally agree with Janet! You are family here! I've never felt so welcomed to a new forum before. Everyone here is so caring and lovely. I don't know you but I really care about you. Mainly because you seem so sweet and warm and you're being treated so disgustingly. I hope you don't leave here! You may need us and we definitely need you.

Shang

I hope everything goes good for you!  If you need anything, feel free to contact me.

(BTW, I love your avatar!  You're really cute! :) )
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Britney♥Bieber

Quote from: Shang on July 08, 2010, 09:43:59 PM
I hope everything goes good for you!  If you need anything, feel free to contact me.

(BTW, I love your avatar!  You're really cute! :) )

I forgot to add this to my message haha! I love it! <3

BunnyBee

Tina, I'm sorry about the emotional pain you feel.  I want to just say that there is an optimistic way to view all this, which is other than how quickly you can start living as yourself, this really isn't a setback.

Sure, you may not be able to openly express yourself right now, but
1)  you can start seeing a counselor (you have to talk with them, often for a few months before they will give you a letter for hormones anyway)
2)  you can start working on your voice
3)  you can start figuring out your style and maybe even sneak in some purchases
4)  you can start finding supportive friends.

All of these things you don't need to be living day-to-day as a woman for and they are absolutely necessary steps in your transition and for most of them it may be a good idea to have them done before transitioning publicly anyway. I would have put electrolysis on the list, but that one may be risky.

So anyway, just concentrate on setting things up for a smooth transition in September.  Good luck and chin up! :)
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