I almost went through with it

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I was rather distraught at the fact that I'd been turned down for a job that would have paid me enough to get my surgery.  Having the fulfillment of my dream taken away suddenly was a huge let down.  I'm a lot better now and have discovered a way to turn my "uniqueness" into an advantageous opportunity that should pay enough for me to get my SRS done.

Maddie. This makes sense. I am certain there are quite a few of us who've fallen into that pit and it's a real kick in the teeth.

But the reality is, you will only ever have the money you need when it is actually in your hands. (Actually, preferrably, your bank account. Don't want some mugger taking it from you!!!)

Believe me when I say. I really do know that feeling. It's almost there, you can taste it. Then, it vanishes.

But, in reality, it wasn't almost there and won't be until it's actually in your hands.

It's a lesson we all have to learn sometime.

<BIG HUGS>