Idle thoughts

[Laura Emily]

July 23, 2010

Mood swings are awful. I've been so down lately. It just seems to get worse. When the burden of life's issues become to much, there seems to only been one choice left: Suicide. It's a selfish act. But aren't most things in life? Of course, mine might be more thoughtful than most others. I would first take care of any financial matters, so as to lessen the burden on my family when I leave this world. I would also rid myself of nearly all my worldly possessions, leaving only small keep sakes. These of course would be mailed off to family as the final step of departure. With all matters settled, the time would then be at hand. But how to execute the final phase?? I want to pass from this world as peacefully as possible. This will take some careful planning and research. The choices I have made for myself recently have made me happier than I have ever been. But will they be enough to turn the tides? Or have I only delayed the inevitable? Time will tell.

"It's better to burn out than fade away." Kurt Cobain

[Nero]

What if suicide is not the way out it looks like? What if you pass from this life into something worse? There's no guarantee suicide will end suffering. What if you get re-incarnated? It's not a guaranteed out.

[Laura Emily]

Can't live life on "what if", though.

[Nero]

Can't die on it either.

[Vanessa_yhvh]

Frankly, if you feel that life's not worth living... make it worth something.

Get out there and DO something to bring somebody else up.

Aside from the fact that I guarantee you'll feel better if you start investing yourself in improving the quality of lives of others, you might want to ask yourself if maybe you have a bit of a moral compass pointing you toward such actions.

The suicide rate is way too high among us. I guarantee SOMEbody needs you.

Why not give it a go for a while and just see if it doesn't change your disposition? It's not like your final option won't still be waiting for you six months from now if opening out in this way doesn't get the job done.

[justmeinoz]

For a start the people here would miss you.

Sydney is right too, helping other people is a good boost to your own feelings, apart from feeling a connection to someone. 

No matter how black things look now, they really do get better. If you have not sought help from your doctor or a therapist, they are there to help. Failing that giving Lifeline or it's local equivalent a call is good. They are there wanting to help, so I would urge you to give them a call. I did, and it helped a lot.

Hugs, Sandra.

[Cindy]

Suicide is no answer. All you will leave is the lifetime of tragic sorrow for those who love you. Lessen the burden on your family? You will give your family the deepest despair that they will ever have.

How selfish!


Problems can be overcome. We all know the black pit that follows us. We have to find the way of keeping from it. There are medical and counseling options open to you. WE are here for you. Think life and how beautiful your life will be if you follow your dreams.

Hugs Honey

Cindy

[spacial]

I too experience extreme mood swings.

hate them.

But you need to understand that, however much they hurt, and they do, you have to construct your life accordingly.

I have a rule that I never take any major decisions without reflecting for at least 2 days. That's because I've found my mood tends to swing in that period. Therefore I can look at the issues from the perspective of at least two of the people who I am.

[Laura Emily]

I think I am bouncing back. Feeling much better now and going to try and find a system to ward off the negative in the future. I got some work to do! Thank you everyone for your kind words, stern opinions and guidance.

[greginprogress]

I can relate to this a lot.  I have struggled with depression for well over a decade and am recently getting better without anti-depressants.  I have struggled with negative thoughts and I find, activities provide some relief, but having meaningful relationships with trusted friends is vital, having people you can look in the eyes and express with honesty the negative feelings, the pain, and the hurt, and have them be present. 

I know today I have a life worthwhile.  I may never be complete in the physical manner, but I have a job I love, and people who love me.  It would be the act of ultimate selfishness on my part to end things.  I also believe I would be doomed to repeat this over and over until I live my life out fully to the best of my ability.