Hello,
I am new to this forum and it's really a nice place here.
So here is my question: did any of you stop T after 2 years and then what exactly happened in your case, and did that make you have problems passing after a while? (I know what to generally expect when getting off T, that's not my question.)
Plus I wonder if anyone has experience with stopping T when his normal body chemisty produces a lot of testosterone.
I am somewhere between genderqueer and transsexual (FTM/FTGQ). I stopped the T 1 year ago after 2 years just to see what happens physically (no surgery yet). One of the reasons was I wanted to force myself going through physical changes again so that I could see if transitioning was really the right thing for me. I also wanted to see if I would stay physically enough on the male side to feel okay about my body and still pass.
The other reason is I wanted to see if my own special body chemistry produces enough T. As a teenager, I was put on estrogen at age 16 because I produced "too much" testosterone so my shoulders had broadened, chin had become somewhat square, got body hair etc. I did not feel at ease taking female hormones all the years but before I took them, I also had hell of a trouble with my period (like having only a bit of it, but almost all the time). I did not know then that transitioning to male was possible.
Many years later, as my first step to transitioning, I stopped the female hormones for one year before going to see a shrink for hormone therapy. I started growing muscles, having a bit of facial hair, some fat redistribution etc. without doing any sports and was very very happy about the changes. No problems with period whatsoever, thanks God, it just became rare. I smelled like a mixture of male and female. When my voice finally started to drop after 1 year, I made an appointement to get T. Also went to an endocrinologist, who was puzzled about my body chemistry but did not find any intersex condition, only PCOS but other hormone levels were atypical as well (but not in a dangerous way).
The changes were like if I had been on T, but much slower. On T, it went much faster which was what I wanted.
Now I have stopped taking T (Nebido) for one year and some things develop back, others not. Muscles have stayed (still without me doing any sport), body and facial hair grows somewhat slower but all stay, and fat redistributes somewhat back but not as much as I know it from MTF girls after 1 year on female hormones. I smell like a mixture of male and female. Oh, and I got my first period a couple of weeks ago after one year or so. Which was somehow annoying, but did not freak me out as much as I thought it would as it did not make me feel like "->-bleeped-<-, proof that I am a girl" but rather "okay, so I'm a guy having his period. That's freaky, but what the heck."
I wonder where this will end if I still stay off T and I feel somewhat ambiguous about the whole situation. On the one hand, I still pass which is great, and I like that I did not develop that much back and that I do not need artificial hormone intake. Also, I am mediterranean so my beard and body hair has really developed well anyway. On the other hand, I hope the fat redistribution will not go on and am afraid my passing might suffer and/or I would end up looking like a freak.
So has anyone else stopped T, and what's your experience with it?
