Hi everyone

[Josylyn]

My dad left when I was 5. My first memory of putting on a panty was around that age ...don'y really know why. Then at, 6 I spent a summer with my dad and my stepmom. I was looking at her putting on makeup, and she asked me if I wanted to try. She put lipstick and mascara on me and told me I would have been a beautiful girl. I went back to My mom, and began to slowly developed effeminate mannerisms. I remember by 8, I would rip my underwear and tie them making it like a panty. I would also tuck my penis between my thighs pretending to be a girl. By 11, I had somewhat of a curvy figure. My mom and her friends would compliment my bubblebutt and my thighs. I tried to be accapted as a boy, but some boys would tease me. I kept secretly putting on panties and nylons and looking at myself in the mirror. later on I had an experience with another boy. Then at that same age I was molested by an old neighbor. I think after reading up on those things that happened to me, now at 45, I may suffer from some sort of GID.

[Janet_Girl]

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[Josylyn]

Thanks for welcoming me Janet. Was looking for a forum where I can express my feelings. Im 45yrs young ..was married for 15yrs... 2 kids. Been divorced for 2. Been living with these feeling for as long as I can remember. Anxiety, guilt ...I know I need some sort of therapy, but don't have any insurance at the moment. thanks again, be well.

[Jillieann Rose]

Hi Josylyn,
Good to meet you. I think your right on both accounts.
You do need therapy to get your feelings sorted out  and find out if it is gender identity disorder.
Maybe you can set up a plan were you can make payments.
Just a thought.
Welcome to Susan's,
Jillieann

[Lacey Lynne]

Hi Josylyn,
Good to meet you. I think your right on both accounts.
You do need therapy to get your feelings sorted out  and find out if it is gender identity disorder.
Maybe you can set up a plan were you can make payments.
Just a thought.
Welcome to Susan's,
Jillieann

Gotta agree with this.  Good advice.  Welcome.  There are people much like you here.  Need good information?  It's here.  Check it, and us, out.  Good luck.