This topic is about the mirror and how it plays with our mind.
I've noticed that since my high school graduation pictures how ugly I am in pictures. I'm Italian and I developed terribly in male puberty. The nose is huge and very masculine, there's a thick brow ridge hanging over my small brown eyes, the chin is vertically long, I have a V shaped jawline that no woman has, and I have a high guys' forehead. I have only one good angle and that's my face from the right side. What's worse is that when I smile in pictures it's crooked and I look like an ugly geek, not attractive at all. I'm convinced that I'm ugly because in video I look the way I do in the pictures.
However, despite all this, I usually always see a different person in the mirror. A person that's young, still a teenager, a boy instead of a man, with a rounder face. Only because of this reflection in the mirror am I able to see a woman staring back at me when I dress up. The difference between the way I look in the mirror and how I actually do look is so different. I've even noticed that people standing behind me in the mirror stare at me as if to say, "You look different."
What sucks of course is that I can't switch the two. My only option is to get plastic surgery to make them look equal, like most people do. I think if you look pretty in the mirror, you should look the same in pictures, but I have a very asymmetrical face, especially my chin and jaw. This has prevented me from passing. I wonder had I started this process ten years ago when my face was young and not masculinized so badly through male puberty if it would be so much easier to pass.
I've also taken pictures to prove these unbelievable differences. Why do I look so different in the mirror? Is it the lighting in my bathroom? How can I explain to a plastic surgeon that I want to look like I do in the mirror?
