Lately I been really tired and stressed, so I am now speaking like a lunatic, and I am feel regretful about what I am saying after I say it. Like today, some guy called me strange, and I was like, "Yeah well it's all make believe". I am not speaking coherently because after I said it I should had never said that line, because I am coming across weird. Then I am lying just to lie, such as my name when I just like disguising under another name, but not with people who know my true name.
I wish I could start this day over lol.... I really screwed up some things with people, since I bet they think I am a weirdo. When in fact I try to present a very good image, and been doing it well until now when my schedules are running are crazy and I have no time to sleep. But I am pretty sure I lost a lot of credibility with this one worker, so I should just try to avoid communication with him for the risk of mentioning it to others.
It's okay though since it's just my workplace, not eternity, I think.... Who cares if people dislike me I guess? But I have to put up with it for at least another 8 months....
Still sucks.
