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[Him]

Well I just finished a lame attempt at working out.
Was listening to some Madness, avoiding Math cramming.
The other night I had a really ("bad") dream- It involved transitioning.
Don't normally get those types of dreams.
So I decided 'it was time'.
I guess.

I've repressed my emotions/feelings for a long while.
As often when I seemed to tell people how I truly felt; they would burst into tears ._.;
Me: 'I want to be a boy~! ' 
Mother figures:  "OMG NOOOOOO- WHAT HAPPENED?! I PICTURED A LIFE FOR YOU! AND NOW THATS GONE! I HATE YOU! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE A BRIDE ONE DAY!"

. . .
I was raised in a foster home by a much older lady.
I went into foster care around age 7- and was in care for about 9 years.
(I keep very minimal contact with my biological parents.)
Always felt as though I was supposed to be a boy. (am 20 currently)
However I've always tried to repress how I feel by forcing myself to find interest among things like... Lolita fashion-
Or make up tips (which I fail at miserably), so on and so forth. (considering expressing myself usually = instant shun)

So I force myself to be girly. I become extremely depressed.
Then inevitably cut my hair- put on a sports bra which is to tiny for me (Acts as binder), and work out.
Though this is the first time I've reached out to a ('little') community.
(I place faith in dreams- and what they can tell you.)

*shrug*
I hope to make some friends here, learn some things, hopefully boost some confidence...
And yeah. 

(I like food, comics, video games, the idea of larping, tv (aka 'magic box'), uhm and drawing.
I'm a scrawny little stick. 5'4 any where from 98-103 pounds- Soccer rocks, and I am Canadian.) 

[Amy85]

Welcome aboard 

[Him]

  Thank you~

(Yeey, I got a reply.)

[Amy85]

lol, no problem    To add to the discussion I also like video games and tv and am Canadian.

[Him]

Oh cool~
'Pass around the poutine' lol.
(I won't get into games- 'cuz some people treat the console wars like the holy grail or some thing lol)
However I am curious what kind of tv shows you've really enjoyed in the past. 
I tend to like allot of cartoons and sci-fi myself. 
Small ville, Star trek(s), Gargoyles,  the venture brothers- and some other adult swim stuff.

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Him,

Welcome to our little family. Over 3400 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

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Janet

[Hermione01]

Hi and welcome Him 

[Him]

@ Janet
It certainly would be.

I've already started picking along some topics, heh.

Thanks for pointing me in the right direction Janet.

I look forward to the time I'll be spending here.


@ Hermione01:
Hello to you as well (miss Granger? ;o ), and thank you~

[kelly_aus]

Hi Him and welcome..

[Cindy]

Hi Him,

Welcome my new brother.
I think you will found lots of helpful people here, even if you are canadian . I'm in Australia.

I've been lucky enough to make lots of friends here. So pull up a chair, warm the igloo and start posting.

Mmm do Canadians live in igloos? Must do why else play ice hockey. Yep Canada is the land of igloos, bet they even have multi story ones, and shopping mall igloos. Wow, must visit. Shopping malls.


Sorry

Cindy

[Amy85]

Oh cool~
'Pass around the poutine' lol.
(I won't get into games- 'cuz some people treat the console wars like the holy grail or some thing lol)
However I am curious what kind of tv shows you've really enjoyed in the past. 
I tend to like allot of cartoons and sci-fi myself. 
Small ville, Star trek(s), Gargoyles,  the venture brothers- and some other adult swim stuff.

Oh I don't take part in the console wars much, they all have their pro's and con's and I chose the xbox really just because the games appealed to me more and my friends use it and I wanted to be able to play online with em. Though right now I'm just playing StarCraft 2 on the computer.
As for TV shows I'm not far from you in liking cartoons and sci-fi. All the Star Treks, Supernatural (more before the angels entered the picture), Venture Bros (TEAM VENTURE!  ), Futurama, American Dad, Frisky Dingo, Moral Orel and other shows like The Office, House, The Big Bang Theory and such.

[justmeinoz]

Hello from across the pond. Welcome aboard, I am sure you will find lots of friends and interesting things here. 

[Nathan.]

Hey, welcome to Susans 

[Him]

@ kelly
Greetings. Thanks   *tips hat*

@ CindyJames
Australia? Awesome! I hear that place can be pretty brutal.
(like if some thing bites you; you have to kill it and bring it into the hospital with you?)

Lol nope- they seem to enjoy industry looking homes- or 'homes that all look very bland and simmilar'.
(At least here in the west. Rocky mountainous valleys and such any ways)  lol
Although on the topic of igloo's; I do have a fair percentage of Inuit bloodline in me.

Thanks lol and NP- I got a good laugh out of that.

@ Amy
*smile* Yeah, I agree. Every console has its pros and cons~
I enjoy playing on the Ds, ps1, and 360.
My comps can't seem to handle games.

Ooh right! I've been meaning to learn more about what a 'starcraft' game is XD;
How are... those...it? 


[...] 'Venture Bros (GO TEAM VENTURE!  ), Futurama, Frisky Dingo, Moral Orel' [...]
*grin* Awesome.
I would have said all the treks as well- but I find the most recent one?
With the Vulcan lady and the human dude is a bit off putting.


@ justmeinoz
Hey~
Thanks ^^
Well so far this site is fairly interesting.
As well as it should be easy enough to make friends here-
People seem very friendly and polite.

@ Nathan
Hello, lol Thank you. 

[ilanthefirst]

Hey, Him, nice to meet you!  I'm also a Trekkie (but not blindly, meaning I'm also not crazy about "Enterprise"), and I've gone LARPing a few times (and loved it).  Nerd pride! 

I'm also on the FTM-ish end of things (still figuring out the details) and love working out. . . well, not the actual working out as much as the side-effect of feeling physically strong is a great weapon against dysphoria, and the endorphins aren't bad either.  (-:  Anyway, I look forward to getting to know you better!

[xAndrewx]

Welcome to the forum man

I'm a smallville fan as well, I recently saw every episode then found out this season is most likely it's last... but that is a different rant altogether. Hope you find what you're looking for. See ya around the forum

[Him]

@ Ilan
Hey there and you as well. ^^

Yes, that's the one!!! *shudder*
I keep pushing that concept out of my head,
because I prefer to relate the word 'Enterprise' with the (U.S.S) Enterprise.
Naming that new (horrid-imo) trek after a beloved starship is...
-Whoops I'm ranting ^^;

Ooh, you've larped?
I'd love to hear about that some time~
(Interested in medieval (fantasy) based larps myself.
However never done any larping *shrug*)

Lol, I think I know what you mean.
Hope you get those sorted out,
Its never fun being indecisive...

Yeah same!
Feel free to send me a PM or some thing some time.


@ Alexander
Thanks. 

Really... Sweet! (you seen every ep-that is)
I'm still working on watching the eps from season 5+
Just finished the other dvd box sets in the past ...month?
*blink blink* lol but yeah, thank you. See you around.

[Amy85]

@ Amy
*smile* Yeah, I agree. Every console has its pros and cons~
I enjoy playing on the Ds, ps1, and 360.
My comps can't seem to handle games.

Ooh right! I've been meaning to learn more about what a 'starcraft' game is XD;
How are... those...it? 


[...] 'Venture Bros (GO TEAM VENTURE!  ), Futurama, Frisky Dingo, Moral Orel' [...]
*grin* Awesome.
I would have said all the treks as well- but I find the most recent one?
With the Vulcan lady and the human dude is a bit off putting.

Yeah, Enterprise had some problems but it had some good episodes in the later seasons.

StarCraft's a real-time strategy game by blizzard. I've been playing Blizzard games since the early 90's and StarCraft1 since it came out in '98 or so.  It's a basic sci-fi setting, humans versus the bug people (very starship trooper-ish) and the Protoss. They remind me of the covenant from Halo. You build buildings which let you make armies which you throw at the other team in a strategic way... if you're good 

Oh yeah, I have a DS too (as well as all Nintendo's from the NES to GameCube). The DS is great for Mario Kart and some RPG's. I'm playing a Dragonball Z rpg now which is actually decent... which is high praise for any dbz video game 

[LordKAT]

Larping? 

[Amy85]

Larping? 

Unless I'm mistaken, it's "Live Action Role Playing".   --> LARPing