First off, I really like this thread, especially the gender form link. Everyone bake yourself a cookie, then eat said cookie with vigor and satisfaction, which will be in some abstract and nebulous sense from me.
I'm inclined to agree in part with all the main viewpoints presented so far - I'm in the wrong box, I am making my own box, boxes shouldn't exist, and who cares. In case anyone is actually interested I'm going to try to address all of those in addition to all of the words I use to describe myself. To be honest, this post is mostly an excuse to write it all down for the times when I feel lost and confused about the whole thing.
~ female-assigned at birth
I'll start from the beginning I guess; when I was born someone visually inspected my genitalia and attempted to define me as female for the rest of my life. I don't like it, but it has contributed something to my identity for better or for worse.
~ Ft?, not female
I've never felt like a girl, even when I didn't understand gender at all. I don't understand girls, I don't feel comfortable in a group of girls, and I can't relate to girls the way they relate to each other and try to relate to me. And I don't want to be able to do those things, in fact, sometimes I am afraid that I am or will become a woman.
~ FtM, sexually male, penis-envier?
As far as sex is concerned, I'd be better off with the standard male genitals. Basically, I feel like a penis would really belong on my body. I don't want to get graphic but I fantasize about it a lot, I would like to use it in sexual acts, and I try to simulate it with toys/imagination.
~ boy, kid, little brother
I am a small person and I tend to act immature or childish, so I'm often known as a kid. I like it very much, I think it makes life so colorful and exciting; I hope I am young at heart until the day I die. I particularly identify with the word "boy," and I've been told I act like a young boy. Sometimes I've been read as my boyfriend's little brother.
~ loli, little girl
Confusingly enough, I also see myself as a little girl in some senses, mostly the cute aesthetic and as a sexual role. I love to dress as an adorable girl with cute clothing and hair bows, and I tend to wear girl's accessories. I don't want to behave like a girl, play with a young girl's toys, or interact with other young girls, but I feel like it's an aspect of my identity. It doesn't feel repulsive to me as long as I am prepubescent.
~ neutrois, androgynous
Physically, I don't want to have a gender. My body shouldn't have male or female markers of any sort*: no gonads, no reproductive organs, no breasts, no curves, no prominent muscles, no facial or body hair, etc. None of those things belong on my body, and I'm desperate to get rid of the ones I have.
~ bishi, prettyboy, femboy
Although I like calling myself a boy I do not want to be a man or look like one. I want to stay small and cute in appearance and behavior; I would absolutely love being a skinny boy with long hair, the kind who is easily mistaken for a girl at a glance. I relate very strongly to the Japanese term bishounen (beautiful boy) and find the western concept of masculinity pretty much a joke.
~ gender bender, gender outlaw, gender punk, gender pirate, etc.
My personal philosophy about gender expression is that it should always be freeing and never restricting. I'll be disappointed if I fit into a gender stereotype, because I don't want to be normal. I want to turn heads, drop jaws, blow minds, and generally knock down all the limits that come from our overly simplistic view of gender. And look awesome while doing it.
Now that I've written down all these labels I feel much freer and less restricted by them. Woo irony.
