I've been waiting around when it came to actually going on hormones. The vast majority of the time I think hormones will help me, but there are doubts, there are moments where I wonder "is this right for me?" Being very low income and without insurance caused me to put it off, too. I started researching the places in my area that were good for people with low income, and used some sort of informed consent. I asked around trying to figure out which places provided the best services, what were people happy about with their experiences?
Today, I called one place on my list of three health centers. The person I spoke to was the head of the transgender program who explained what they do, how they work, costs, etc. Towards the end of the conversation I felt like this was where to go. I set up an appointment for intake for Thursday. I was shaking, breathing heavy, and my heart was racing in the minutes before I called. Afterward I started to cry because it's like...a huge relief. My heart is still beating pretty fast so I sang along to show tunes.
