Hello Scarbouroughfair,
I understand your feelings. I go through the same thing. We are all different in our beliefs and attitudes towards this issue, as can be seen by the responses. I too, am married. Have been for 28 years. I married partly out of love and partly to force myself to live my life based on my physical being. A big mistake that I wouldn't recommend anyone else make. It doesn't work, and I have never heard anyone say different. I am back in a position where I have to decide what to do. My therapist told me that I have to live my own life, not someone else's. I'm back at that fork in the road. It's not easy, especially when you care and maybe even still love your spouse. If the relationship is otherwise good, then someone gets hurt. Probably both parties. To find real happiness for yourself, however, you do what has to be done. For me that means I will have to leave my wife, as I already know she wants no part of me as a female. I suspect we will remain good friends. That's where I'm at. You have a difficult decision to make. Two who have responded made that decision. Nobody can really make that decision for you. Our sanity and happiness depends on our decision, then again, the same applies to our spouses who have to live with us.
