at that cross road, again!

[iris1469]

if anyone actually reads my posts, you would know that i struggle at times with, none other than; myself. It is one of those days. It has started off with me getting my feelers hurt in another topic, then proceded to be being "sir'd" Well, aside from wanting to tear my face off (literally) I feel the strong urge to, oh lets say alter my mood with narcotics. Now if ya member, i was getting real drunk, planning to pass out and wake up all good, but that isnt gunna work (again if you had read my earlier posts). I got an idea, maybe ill just take a strong sleeping pill!!! its a thought

[Megan]

if anyone actually reads my posts, you would know that i struggle at times with, none other than; myself. It is one of those days. It has started off with me getting my feelers hurt in another topic, then proceded to be being "sir'd" Well, aside from wanting to tear my face off (literally) I feel the strong urge to, oh lets say alter my mood with narcotics. Now if ya member, i was getting real drunk, planning to pass out and wake up all good, but that isnt gunna work (again if you had read my earlier posts). I got an idea, maybe ill just take a strong sleeping pill!!! its a thought

oh relax... life isn't all that bad, just make it okay... even when it's doom and sadness and misery.

[spacial]

Yeah, you're just tempted, that's all.

You're gonna get yourself clean. Then get on your feet. Not tomorrow, but yesterday and now.

And I alwasy read your posts.

[Janet_Girl]

Don't let what some said upset you to the point of giving in to booze or drugs.  You are stronger than ether of them.

Stand and be Strong.  Never let another have that much control over you.

Hang tough.  Hugs Hon.

[alexia elliot]

hey beautiful, I know only too fresh what that feels like, no words of wisdom and help seem to make any sense. Down, down, down the spiral goes. So put your self at this position, you flip the switch and then what, nothing, nothing to experience, nothing to look forward to, nothing to run away from. No mornings feeling happy for what you got, no evenings chatting up with friends on line, no tears cleansing your spirit, no loughs at my jokes. No satisfaction of how far you got, no ecstasy of finally getting there and looking so beautiful, so gorgeous that even you can't believe your eyes. No falling in love with someone so dear.

Girl there are a lot of reasons to feel down. But girl there are a lot more reasons to look forward to. With all my love, Alexia

[Elijah3291]

who the hell would call you sir! you are gorgeous, were you in guy mode?

[iris1469]

hey beautiful, I know only too fresh what that feels like, no words of wisdom and help seem to make any sense. Down, down, down the spiral goes. So put your self at this position, you flip the switch and then what, nothing, nothing to experience, nothing to look forward to, nothing to run away from. No mornings feeling happy for what you got, no evenings chatting up with friends on line, no tears cleansing your spirit, no loughs at my jokes. No satisfaction of how far you got, no ecstasy of finally getting there and looking so beautiful, so gorgeous that even you can't believe your eyes. No falling in love with someone so dear.

Girl there are a lot of reasons to feel down. But girl there are a lot more reasons to look forward to. With all my love, Alexia

I really like you (not sexual)! You speak so eloquently. Might I ask for a picture. I really would like to associate my fondness to a face.......Love ya

[alexia elliot]

I really like you (not sexual)! You speak so eloquently. Might I ask for a picture. I really would like to associate my fondness to a face.......Love ya

Here is the link to my latest vid:
Don't assume I am fully passable, it will take time but all good things take time baby, you will see!

[iris1469]

Here is the link to my latest vid:
Don't assume I am fully passable, it will take time but all good things take time baby, you will see!

I think you look great! No really If i looked only half as good as you I would be, yep you guessed it, happy!!! (no what I have found is that it does not matter what we have, we always want something else that we dont. WHen we should take the time to realize that even though we dont have what we consider ideal, there are others that will wish for our life.....I am not as eloquent as you when it comes to speaking. ONe problem is that my brain moves at such a high rate of speed, and my fingers not so! When I start a topic, I always look for you to provide me with your usual, delightful, perspective..!!! Thanks

[iris1469]

who the hell would call you sir! you are gorgeous, were you in guy mode?

Well I was not wearing any makeup except for my permanent makeup. And I NEVER go guy ever. I do not own any man clothes, would burn them if I did have em. I always think that people are just saying "sir" to be disrespectful. Thank you fer the nice thing you said!!! I really do appreciate it.

[kelly_aus]

I can only assume that anyone that calls you 'sir' either needs to get their eyes checked or put on their glasses.. I think you look great. And you are probably right, when it does happen it is probably just disrespect, something that is far too common..

And one thing I learnt recently after being a drug user for almost 20 years, is that they don't really help.. Sure they mask things, but only for a while, you are better off facing things..

[iris1469]

I can only assume that anyone that calls you 'sir' either needs to get their eyes checked or put on their glasses.. I think you look great. And you are probably right, when it does happen it is probably just disrespect, something that is far too common..

And one thing I learnt recently after being a drug user for almost 20 years, is that they don't really help.. Sure they mask things, but only for a while, you are better off facing things..

You are right. And the urge has passed. Thank you for saying nice things to me!!!

[juliemac]

For one, your younger than me, prettier and a nicer rack.
bitch.

Ok, that over. All this is up to you. Meds dont all ways help, nor do councilors. Why do I say that? Its up to you.
Who do you want to be? The stable woman that no one questions? Or the wounded one.
A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. Getting to where you want to be, takes the same steps.

Get a good nights sleep. Tomorrow morning look in the mirror and tell your self that this is a new day. That tomorrow is gone. Set some goals to accomplish and set out to get them done.
It does not matter if you dont get all of them done. Just one is an accomplishment. Smile at that!

In 1990 I was a drug addict and a drunk. 14 days in a locked ward of a psych unit helped me come up with that plan. Since then, I have transitioned, survived the accusation of sexually abusing my daughter (2 YO then) Fought in family court and won custody.
I also taught my self programming and am now a senior programmer. Not bad, actually, it bloody amazes me. I never thought I had it in me.

You have it in you to take control of your life and be the person you want to be. I have faith in you.
Take a deep breath, tomorrow is the start of the rest of your life!

[Megan]

For one, your younger than me, prettier and a nicer rack.
bitch.

Ok, that over. All this is up to you. Meds dont all ways help, nor do councilors. Why do I say that? Its up to you.
Who do you want to be? The stable woman that no one questions? Or the wounded one.
A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. Getting to where you want to be, takes the same steps.

Get a good nights sleep. Tomorrow morning look in the mirror and tell your self that this is a new day. That tomorrow is gone. Set some goals to accomplish and set out to get them done.
It does not matter if you dont get all of them done. Just one is an accomplishment. Smile at that!

In 1990 I was a drug addict and a drunk. 14 days in a locked ward of a psych unit helped me come up with that plan. Since then, I have transitioned, survived the accusation of sexually abusing my daughter (2 YO then) Fought in family court and won custody.
I also taught my self programming and am now a senior programmer. Not bad, actually, it bloody amazes me. I never thought I had it in me.

You have it in you to take control of your life and be the person you want to be. I have faith in you.
Take a deep breath, tomorrow is the start of the rest of your life!

Nice... I like this quote a lot.

[Jillieann Rose]

Super Kitty,
Hey girl, I'm sorry, I didn't see this posting when I was on yesterday.
I always read your postings because I consider you one of my hot looking young friends.
We all get down at times but don't do drugs or booze that only makes matters worst.
Sometimes I want to scream pull my hair out or even just end it all.
But what I do is find something, anything that I can really get engrossed in. Maybe it just a walk or a hobby, read a book, watch a show or even helping someone. Anything that will get my mind out of the rut I am in.

I can only assume that anyone that calls you 'sir' either needs to get their eyes checked or put on their glasses.. I think you look great. And you are probably right, when it does happen it is probably just disrespect, something that is far too common..

I agree completely. Only some one blind or sick would sir you Kitty.
It is sad to say, but some people only feel good when they can hurt others.
Hang in there Kitty

You can make it girl.
Hugs,
Jillieann

[iris1469]

that is like a TOTALLY awesome pic!!!!!! Yeappers, I was able to stay the course!!! Meow

[erocse]

Oh kitty , You didn't get Sir'd. You just thought you did. What happened was the person was so  mesmerized by your rack. They said "Ye Sure" not "Yes Sir"

"Ye sure"anything you say, Ma'am. Oh sorry I didn't mean to stare"
 
your friend, Erocse

[Jillieann Rose]

Kitty,
Glad you like the picture.  I'll think of you from now on ever time I see it.
That's great you got pass that one. But there will be more. Take it from me.
So when your at another cross road remember we are here to help or at least come alone side.
(I'm talking to me as much as to you girl.) But we can get through it.
Like you I don't have the money for med's or surgery cause I don't have insurance for any of that. Nor do I have a high paying job.
But somehow someway I keep scrapping up enough to pay for the meds.
(Without them I'd be a basket case or worst.)
So Kitty let just keep heading in the right direction and we can both get there.
Hugs, 
Jillieann

[iris1469]

Oh kitty , You didn't get Sir'd. You just thought you did. What happened was the person was so  mesmerized by your rack. They said "Ye Sure" not "Yes Sir"

"Ye sure"anything you say, Ma'am. Oh sorry I didn't mean to stare"
 
your friend, Erocse

you are like so cool!!!! When can we hang out again? I dont care what we do. Hell ill even go to the other state you go to. Dont want to put your business out there,,,but hey thank you for blessing us with your presence. I know that my day is a lot better now that I heard from you!!!!!!!   Oh yeah, i am a little cute but a bombshell? I wish girl