Quote from: Lacey Lynne on October 22, 2010, 11:17:15 PM
Look, I'm not saying this to try and compete with or upstage you in any way. I'm agreeing with you to the max. Christ, story of my life, man. Truer words were never spoken.
For the brief time that I was on The Wiki Staff here at Susan's Place, I wrote 2 articles in what was going to be a series of articles on this very subject. Yes, management wanted other things addressed on our wiki, but I thought this matter to be of paramount importance and started to address it.
Sad they didn't include it in their Wiki. Do you still have the articles? Maybe you can send me them per PM. Nice to know I'm not alone here, though at the same time, I feel sorry for you.
Quote from: Lacey Lynne on October 22, 2010, 11:17:15 PM
I'll keep this very brief, because you stated your case very well here, indeed! Moreover, suffice it to say that the isolation, rejection and dejection one can (AND DOES!) face because of this "brightness trip" is every bit as severe and depressing as that which we face from being trans. Put the two situations together, and the difficulty you face is exponentially greater and more difficult.
You make a very very good point here. Wow, I've never thought much about it, but yes, you're right. Absolutely right. That was eye-opening. Thank you!
Either you suffer from isolation, or the only people who get along with you (and vice versa) are like you or don't mind you being the way you are. For every-day life, it's useful to try to pass as "normal" - if you can - and not make them know what's up with you so you don't get rejected. And even if that works, you still feel like a human among martians or vice versa, very different from the other people; it's okay for superficial acquaintances, but does not work for deep friendships. The biggest annoyance is when you have to deal with people who don't want to use their brains to question their own prejudices (no matter if these prejudices affect you personally or not).
$64 Question:
Did I just describe the situation of
[ ] trans people?
[ ] highly intelligent people?
[ ] both?
Quote from: Lacey Lynne on October 22, 2010, 11:17:15 PM
Amazingly enough, it seems that a good number of trans people seem to be at least bright if not downright brilliant. Often times, I think gender counselors make a "red herring diagnosis" mistakenly thinking that their bright client's isolation and difficulty all stems exclusively from being trans. That's all I'll say about the matter. Don't want to go on and on as is my wont and alienate and bore people by so doing.
I've been writing so much stuff in this forum already and I'm sure lots of people think - oh no, another endless posting by Fencesitter. That guy needs to get his keyboard locked away on warrant. But some people read my stuff nevertheless, others can just skip my postings, and it's also good for venting. Really good.
I'd say don't be afraid to write down your own stuff as well here, or send me a PM, I'd enjoy reading your story.
I've also made the observation that lots of trans people seem to be at least bright. At least, in my life, I had a lot of luck, and met quite a lot of transgendered and genderqueer people even long before transition (not via the internet, they just happened to be neighbors etc., mind you!), as well as people who didn't shun me for being highly intelligent, so isolation has never been so much of an issue for me. I was very lucky. However, it has always been a bit like looking for a needle in a haystack, or being confined to tiny subcultures.
And the "red herring diagnosis" problem might well be true. Plus, it makes lots of people uncomfortable dealing with highly intelligent people, but also with gender-variant people as this goes against one of the most basic rules of society. I don't know how trans "experts" and gender therapists get along with patients who have a combination of both, but I think some of the early transphobic "scientific" reports they wrote about us decades ago might also have had this aspect going into it.
Let me add to this that a gatekeeper system, which kind of puts people under tutelage and dictates them what step of transition to do in which order and which way, makes you feel like you're treated like an idiot who cannot make sound decisions for yourself. (I'm not talking about useful orders like getting breast implants only after hormones have caused some growth or getting the surgery only after you have been full-time for a while etc., but about the German system with its obligatory 1.5 years of therapy and its sacro-sanct obligatory 1-year non-hormonal real life test, which has probably been thought of by people who are transphobic or less bright than they think they are.) This tutelage is humiliating for everybody anyway, but, I guess, particularly difficult to deal with for highly intelligent people. I'd say it can even be traumatizing; at least that's the effect it had on me.
Then they tell you that you should trust them and open up to them and tell them the truth, and that they have the best for you in mind and need as much information as they can get about you to "help" you deal with your other problemas and to decide for you if you get hormones+surgery allowed or not, in your best interest of course. Which, if hormones+surgery are the main reason why you go there, is not only overly hypocrite, but also an abuse of confidence and as anti-therapeutic as can be. Sorry, I really cannot open up in such a setting without losing my self-respect. It does not help either if you know that whatever the "experts" use as a base for their decisions about your life results from the distortions caused by the gatekeeping system and many of us having had to lie to the shrinks, or still lying. And you still see many "experts" take this data for granted. This is not a bright attitude, you know how flawed it is, but they have the power.
I've read an alarming recent Dutch report yesterday where the experts had put together counter-indications for surgery by making statistics from data they had gathered about post-surgery regrets. Which would be awesome if they used the data for warning people and maybe slowing down their okay for surgery a bit to give trans people more time to think about whether they really want it. But they were trying to find out who they'd let have surgery at all in the future and who not based on these statistics. And honestly, I'm sure lots of our post-op folks lied there even if they were unhappy about the surgery, as they didn't want to create more obstacles for us, and more tutelage, and less freedom to decide ourselves about our lives so I guess the data is flawed again.
And I'm also sure that if the report has consequences for the shrinks' future decisions, many of us will learn these counter-indications by heart and lie to the shrinks. And therefore, they will have to figure out on their own again what transition steps they take, without having the opportunity and freedom to talk openly to their therapist. Even if you're not sure yourself if you want the surgery, under such circumstances, it would be better to lie until you get the okay so you still have the freedom to decide on your own if you'll do it or not, than to be honest about your statistical counter-indications and getting the choice denied. So I think if this report has consequences, the biggest consequence will be that there will be more lying again, and less reliable data. It's such a silly and counter-productive cat-and-mouse game, and the shrinks still don't use their brain to figure out how stupid this is.