Quote from: Julie Marie on December 28, 2006, 01:37:19 PM
A few years ago I found the COGATI test and took it. I tried to skew it a little so it would come up saying I was female inside. When it came up Probable Transsexual I started to cry. I knew it was right but also knew what that meant, in terms of my future. This really bothered me. About a week later I took it again making sure I answered every question completely honestly. I has hoping for a lower score. I wasn't ready to lose everything. When the new results came up it said Classic Transsexual. I scored higher! I ultimately convinced myself to ignore the test because it wasn't definitive and lived a couple more years in denial.
Once I came out of denial and opened my eyes to this beautiful world around me I knew I could never go back. However, like you, I tested myself time and time again. Then one day I asked myself if I had to go back to my old life, could I and be happy? Just the thought of it put me into a tailspin! No way could I do that!
Once you remove something from your life you'll know how important it really is to you.
Julie
I've taken a bunch of different on line TS tests. All of them seemed to have obvious transsexual answers. And so even when I was trying to answer honestly, when I would pick the answer that felt right to me, but was one of the obvious transsexual answers, I felt like I was consciously or unconsciously skewing the test read me as a transsexual. I always was of course, but I felt like I was loading the dice, so to speak.
The two tests that I found were less biased weren't TS test intensionally, though interesting never the less.
One test asked you to type a story or message and based on sentence structure and word selection would attempt to make a determination if the person entering the message was male of female. The longer the message the more accurate was the reading. I found I could "type like a girl" and enter a message in passive voice mode that always made the program call me female. That test really wasn't telling me anything I didn't know already. I know how to use phrases and sentence structure that are either masculine or feminine. I prefer, of course, to use the feminine mode.
The other test was more telling, at least to me. There was a test that had you answer various multiple choice questions and then it made a prediction whether or not you were female. The interesting point of this test was that the program was heuristic, meaning that it "learned" what where male and female responses. When the program was first started it had no idea what was male and what was female. When you completed the test, it would guess whether or not you were male of female. And then ask you if it guessed right. Hopefully the majority of people answered truthfully. When I took the test a couple thousand people had already taken the test and it claimed it was over 95% accurate.
The interesting part to all this was the questions were almost nonsensical in that they had no obvious male or female answer. Questions like "If you had to ship a package oversees, would you choose to send it by air or sea?"
I took the test a couple of times and every time it guessed I was a female. I found I could not convince the program to guess that I was male.
That's when it started to dawn on me that I was truly transsexual and that my crossdressing days were over. Well actually I had to come to grips that I had been crossdressing as a male all my life.
That's when my life started to really make sense.
-Sandy
