I am blah!

[Megan]

I feel like I have no true purpose, and just floating in space.

Lately, (well today lol), I been feeling like "I hate being so short...", and I am wearing elevator shoes (2.8 inches) and I still feel short. It's been hitting me hard like this past week, since I never felt this short, even though I been the same height. There was this really tall dude, and he didn't even notice me, like his view was fixated in his field of vision. That annoyed me like hell, and I think it's getting to the point where I will always be treated younger for my age even though I feel old as hell.

I haven't took those elevator shoes off in about 4 hardcore months now, and I wonder what life is like back at 5'7 again.

And I ordering a new ones (4 inches!!!).... so that's exciting I guess. I just want to be equal eye level with most guys now... and not look up to them.

But damn I feel short, compare to most men... and some women.

I guess it's not that short...
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But whatever,

and I feel like I have no purpose in living anymore... but I think that's because I am exhausted.

[ilanthefirst]

I'm not sure where you live, but in the US, the national average height for women is 5'4".  It is completely unclear to me why you feel short or why that would be a problem if you want to be read as female.

[SnailPace]

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I believe that Megan prefers to be seen as a gay male at this point?  (In real life situations at least...)

As for having no purpose in life; you won't have one if you don't give one to yourself.  It's just one of those things that you are in complete control of.  Even if there are no big things going on right now, you can devote yourself to whatever it is you happen to be doing.  And think positive!