Name: (wouldn't you want to know)
Sex: Male (for now)
Age: 28 years from birth
Location: United States of America
Terrible thread title, I know. For those who know me, I used to post a lot here many years ago. When I became inactive I had identified as androgyne. But over the last year I have become increasingly aware that I have no maleness left in my identity. It is simply not there. Even my masculine traits may just be an artifice of choosing to conceal myself as male. I don't know. That doesn't even matter now. Testosterone is my enemy. I will break it into little pieces and laugh in its face.
My years have seen many strange and wondrous things. As my dysphoria resurfaced over the years, I used my increasingly robotic personality to logically analyze the human body to learn as much about it as I possibly could. I conducted unusual experiments on the body. I risked death multiple times. I believe that my studies have paid off. I have reason to believe that I have a good method to increase the amount of estrogens in the body. I shall conduct this experiment for no less than two months, at which time I shall attempt to mathematically calculate the effectiveness of my methods. If the result is favorable I will continue. If not, I might consider attempting to procure some hormones.
I'm already beginning to feel more female. I feel a bit giddy. It is good. But my real challenge is not changing the body. I think that is more a matter of time than anything else. I am certain of my methods. My real problem is that I still live with my parents. As everyone already knows, no story is complete without a good conflict. My parents are conservative Christians, and I'm certain that they are not ready for me to become their daughter. If my sister knew, she would have an absolute fit. But I think she'll rebound easier than my parents. My sister does not have it in her for her heart to remain hard about anything. As for my parents, their true personalities are yet to be seen.
I don't even really care about the complications anymore. This must happen. If I were forced to choose between being a part of the family or being female, I would choose to be female without thinking twice. I will become female in body as well as mind. Or at least, as female as I can manage. I know this is going to be significantly more difficult than anything I have ever done. My desire is equal to the task. It is time for me to slough off my maleness as if it were dead skin. It is time for a new and improved version of VeryGnawty.
