Yes, I understand that. Even in the virtual world, when I was first exploring my gender and I saw so many very masculine transguys, I was jealous and intimidated. I felt like I couldn't be as male as them, not just in temperament, but because so many of them had naturally high T levels - mine are totally normal for a bio-female. Then, in real life - my ex is trans. He was passing before he came out, he builds muscle very quickly and essentially went through male puberty, voice drop included, because of his T levels. That masculinity made me really envious at first... I adjusted in the end, though. Even though he looks bio-male in my eyes, and I still look really female at times, he has his own concerns. We all have insecurities, regardless of how masculine we appear.
