Hi everyone

[Michelle Ellis]

I guess I should introduce myself... I'm just a lonely mixed up thing from Oregon, I'm a 37 year old (non-op) TS with no significant other, and I seem to be locked inside a closet with no key. Last year, I dunno what happened, but after a lifetime of confusion I started waking up. I figure my life is just too short, I need to get on with things.

I've come from another forum where I posted for maybe 6 months or so, in that short time I've done more soul searching and inner exploration than I ever thought possible, I've learned and realised things about myself, good things too, but in doing so I've managed to totally freak myself out.

I've done so much, and come so far, but still, I can't see where it is I'm going... I feel tortured, living a life that should not be mine.

So in the end, I'm trying to find a way to bring a little happiness into my life, trying to find a way to come out to someone who really matters to me, and maybe, just trying to make a new friend or two.

M

[tinkerbell]

Hi Michelle Ellis and welcome to Susan's!

Thank you for your introduction.  I'm sure there are many members here who can relate to your feelings and experiences.  Please take a second to explore all the forums of the site, review the site rules/Terms of Service, and visit the wiki and reference library where there's plenty of valuable information for your reading pleasure.

We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay!

tinkerbell

[Steph]

I guess I should introduce myself... I'm just a lonely mixed up thing from Oregon, I'm a 37 year old (non-op) TS with no significant other, and I seem to be locked inside a closet with no key. Last year, I dunno what happened, but after a lifetime of confusion I started waking up. I figure my life is just too short, I need to get on with things.

I've come from another forum where I posted for maybe 6 months or so, in that short time I've done more soul searching and inner exploration than I ever thought possible, I've learned and realised things about myself, good things too, but in doing so I've managed to totally freak myself out.

I've done so much, and come so far, but still, I can't see where it is I'm going... I feel tortured, living a life that should not be mine.

So in the end, I'm trying to find a way to bring a little happiness into my life, trying to find a way to come out to someone who really matters to me, and maybe, just trying to make a new friend or two.

M

Hello Michelle.

I think it would be safe to say that many have suffered as you are.  It seems to go with the territory.  Ya I know that doesn't make it right.  Yep we are only given one life to life so we may as well make the best of it as it would be so sad to be laying on deaths door step wishing we had done this or had done that.  I hope that you find what you are for here at Susan's, I know one thing is for sure and that is you will meet a lot of caring, interesting folks here.

Welcome to Susan's Michelle, and remember "The light at the end of the tunnel could be you"

Steph

[cindianna_jones]

Wow... Michelle... a name that is dear to me.... Some of my best friends are named Michelle

Welcome to the forum.  Hang out and enjoy.  There are many wonderful people here.  It is certainly easy to form friendships among such decent human beings.

I hope you find your way.

Cindi

[Ricki]

Well Hello Michelle..
welcome
We are searching for similiar things and right around the same age as well!
Ricki

[HelenW]

Hi Michelle!  Welcome!

If you're trying to get your head on straight this is a good place to be.  If you want to make friends of people who know what you are going through and have gone through then this is it.  I found both kinds of help here and I'm quite certain you will too.

I'll be looking forward to reading more from you in the future.  Don't be afraid of asking questions and maybe once in a while you can offer an answer or two.

again, WELCOME ! ! 
helen