Thought I had best formally introduce myself!

[Nikki H]

Hi there, I can't officially say my name is Nikki but that is what I would like to be called please
So "Hi". I'm 21 live in the UK.
My history: ok so I haven't always known I wanted to be a woman. I would say I have definatly known something was different but this has dawned on me slowly over quite a few years.
Couple of years ago I got annoyed at myself for wanting to be a woman so I joined the army to "man myself up" and while I would never want to forget a second of my training and time there.. I just didn't fit in with the infantry, however much I loved the job. So now I'm at college studying IT.
So I have very recently decided to be totally honest with myself and just let myself hear what I was telling myself (wow this sounds crazy!) And have had to change doctors and have an appointment booked to tell my doctor how I feel, hopefully he/she (never met them yet lol) wont just laugh in my face and call me crazy.
I have a wonderful girlfriend who I haven't told any of this yet but after bringing up the topic of ->-bleeped-<- in general with her she is very open minded and we have discussed transgender issues at length but I know this is going to break her heart and I feel selfish dragging out popping her dream of a nice family of man and wife with kids with me, but I hope to all hell that we can atleast be friends.
Anyways enough of my rambling, thats me for now x

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Nikki,

Welcome to our little family. Over 4800 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

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Hugs and Love,
Janet

[Pica Pica]

Ello, welcome - always best to tell her before you become a family man I imagine.

[annette]

Hi Nikki
welcome to the forum
Don't be afraid the doctor will be laughing in your face, because they know more about tg then in older times.
your story sounds quite familiair, most of us has tried to be the one according to your body and with most of us it din't work.
I hope, when you have things clear for yourselve, you friend will be with you.
and please, don't think it's selfidh to be just the one that you are.
nature sometimes makes misstakes that's nobody's fault.


hugs
annette

[xAndrewx]

Welcome to the site Nikki 

[sigmafan]

Welcome to the site Nikki.  You'll enjoy your time here and meet some great people.  I know I'm a newbie myself, but they've been so nice and very compassionate.  They are always here to lend you a helping hand, no matter what your problems are.

[Jillieann Rose]

Hello  Nikki,
It's good to meet you.
Nope the doc won't laugh in your face, that is if he's a good one.
Sound like your on the right track now. That's great.
Many of us have had or are haveing relationship problems with our loved ones.
So we do understand. Please don't drag this on for her sake and yours.
Tell her now, you never know how a she will react.
Welcome to the family,
Jillieann

[Mrs Erocse]

Welcome Nikki,

This is an awesome site with wonderful, intelligent and carring people. Look forward to your posts.

Hugs.
Mrs Erocse.