Hi,
I'm alias Fuji, Ft...?- I'm not sure. I've heard of someone calling themselves FtX, where the 'X' stood for awesome. I'm tempted to adopt the term.
I was struggling for a while because I felt I was missing a certain body part, like someone had made a mistake and forgotten to give me one, and I didn't know why I had a V or what I should be doing with it. What made it more difficult for me is that I like performing the female gender- I just know I'm not supposed to be the female sex.
Though I've accepted what I am (I call myself a gay man-woman), and started living and making love the way I want (though not sharing it with anyone other than my partner and closest friends) I'm still terrified of not having a support community. I've seen a lot of divisiveness in Trans communities, and I was worried I was not trans-enough because I only wanted to change my private characteristics and not my outward ones.
But now that I've started participating, I've found a lot of acceptance. I hope to hear from and learn from and about other people who identify in between or as both genders or sexes.
I'm looking forward to being a part of the community. Thank you!
-Fuji