Hello Sailorgurl,
No need to be sorry, you haven't done anything wrong. This is what Susan's is all about, a place where you can safely talk about issues to people who are compassionate, and understanding, although we can be quite frank and to the point at times
These feelings of uncertainty are natural. The decisions you will be making could be life changing, depending on which way you decide, although you seem pretty convinced that you are trans. The questions you've posed in your post are exactly the questions you should ask the therapist.
Quoteand my feelings of being transgender being the same is the simple core feeling of being RIGHT. Like it was my destiny, my calling, my path.
If it feels right that you are trans then then you probably are, and you are more than likely feeling apprehension, and a little anxiety over this possibility, and the fact that this will be brought out during therapy.
It is a huge life changing situation to confront, and one you will have to decide if you want to go through with what can sometimes be an agonising journey,
I wouldn't worry at this point, stick with your schedule, see your therapist and see what results. Just remember, don't go in with any preconceived ideas, and that all will probably not be revealed in the first session. Think of the first session as the feeling out phase.
Take care, and keep us posted,
Steph