How do you do it?

[Jennie]

Hi, I have known I was a girl since I can remember, I think since kindergarden or even befor that, but I have never told anyone, I know if I tried to tell my Dad, in is condition he would probably have a heart attack and I am not joking, his heart is in bad shape, my Mom, I dont think she would accept it either, she is very religous and then I think about all the people I know and I am too scared.
HOW DO YOU DO IT
I think if I did I would loose my friends and family, I think my wife and daughter would stick by me though.
Was it hard for you folks like it is me and then it got easyer, did you loose any family or friends.
I wish people could see me for who I am on the inside, it would make it easer to transition, oh there is that word, transition, I want it so bad but it seems so imposible, I am 44 and my life is established in such a way that I would have to go somewhere else to transition, I just dont ahve the gutts or should I say the balls to come out to anyone, it scares me so much.

Jennie

[Cindy]

Hi Jennie,

It is the easiest and most difficult thing for you to do. Once you can never ever take the pain of being "TG" again then you have no choice. Well you do. One is death. I do not recommend that option. It won't work. The other is seeking a therapist and starting. In practice it is difficult but if you are "TG" then it also a massive relief.  There is NO RELIEF from being "TG" until you accept that you are gender identity dimorphic (GID), then the work starts. What can you live with? What can you not live with? How much can you give up? How much hurt can you put people through?  How strong is your will to live?

Many of us have gone the whole way or at least live full or close to full time. Most of us (sorry I'm talking MtF here) are on hormonal therapy (HRT) it is gorgeous. Mentally and physically (not too physical for me I'm an old bitch ) feel normal for the first time in our lives.

Accepting your gender can be difficult, but I think most who try and stay in the wrong gender suffer badly but it is our choice. It is a separate journey for each of us, even though we follow common paths.

Welcome to Susan's

We do understand. and we are friendly and loving.

Hugs
Cindy

[Jennie]

Hi Cindy, thanks for the reply and the support.

Jennie