Still Learning Stuff... ... ...

[Elsa]

Well haven't posted for almost 3 weeks now ... still a bit nervous and readjusting after my decision to stop HRT...

So since I have never introduced myself ... I think it would be appropriate if I do....

the last few months have been a real amazing learning experience for me... I have learned things about myself that I never thought I was capable of......

I have realized that I am not a man ... but I also have to accept that I am not a woman... perhaps something in between without any gender.... I hope I am making sense ...

I know that stopping HRT is not the best option for me since I am trangender with GID and would always feel like I am bottling up the woman in me ... but I have also realized that SRS is not the best option for me as I would then feel like I am bottling up the male part of me... which means transitioning now before I find what I am is rather not the best option ... I dont like the idea of stopping HRT completely and will be continuing with a low dose of finasteride and once in a while even spiro....

and the last few weeks especially ... falling in love with the most wonderful woman I have met (and also my first ever relationship...) has without doubt been the best and most happiest part of my life

Throughout this entire time I have also had the great fortune of meeting alot of great people on susans and I although I am still trying to accept what I am but I really dont want to leave this wonderful site .. so I thought an introduction would be appropriate ... dont worry I am still transgendered and to some extent still an mtf but I know that if I go all the way I will end up as a mtf2ftm and will never be happy either way...

[LordKAT]

It is a good thing to know yourself. Maybe you will find that HRT without surgery works for you, maybe not.

Nothing wrong with androgyny.

[annette]

Hi Vibes

Good to hear from you again.
You know, the GID thing takes a lot of time, time to discover yourself and time to grow with the thought of GID.
It's more like a marathon than a short sprint.
So, take all the time you need to find out how to make your life a good life for you.

And you are so right about learning, we never know anything but are learning each day.
So, keep on learning my friend and be as happy as you can be.

love
annette

[Elsa]

thanks annette and Kat, its good to be back, I really missed people from here... 

I have spent most of my life since I was 4 thinking I am a girl stuck in a guys body that its difficult to readjust...

yet still am not 100% sure what I am but I know I am not "normal" but I do know that there does exist a male side of me... as well a female side

I would say androgynous leaning towards mtf ... is where I currently fit...

[Jacquelyn]

Hi Vibes

Good to hear from you again.
You know, the GID thing takes a lot of time, time to discover yourself and time to grow with the thought of GID.
It's more like a marathon than a short sprint.
So, take all the time you need to find out how to make your life a good life for you.

And you are so right about learning, we never know anything but are learning each day.
So, keep on learning my friend and be as happy as you can be.

love
annette

I couldn't have said it better. Life is full of surprises, twists, and turns. Rolling with those punches is something a lot of people struggle with, it seems like you are doing a great job adjusting to them and figuring yourself out. I wish you luck, and remember, everyone here is here for you as you whenever you need.


Hugs,
Jacquelyn