I felt so in between all those comments! I've ended up looking as women's fashion so much now, and then I almost burst out crying as I know I wouldn't fill any of it in the right way yet, and probably never will!
I remember looking after a local shop for my family, and my sister in law said I was weird as I never went near the top shelf and never would. I look at all the glittery pink things my niece has and am outrageously envious of her! This was even before the hormones.
Now I just end up spending time studying the fashion and hair, and I'm not even that far into hormones and not sure whether it is just Rachel coming out, or it is as someone said my priorities have changed and I'm still attracted to the women, not as much, but I'm more looking at everything about them and wondering if I could ever get anywhere near the sheer beauty that I see. God, women just look amazing and I just wish that I could pass as one enough that I could find myself beautiful, instead of this bloody disgusting body I'm in!!
