Ok, my ex is getting her anger out on me still, and quite frankly I don't mind at the moment, as I want her to be able to move on. However, she said something's that although was meant to insult me, instead it made me laugh and I actually did, and I feel so evil! I really cared for her, and as such laughing at what is her blatantly showing how much hurt I have caused just makes me want to cry as well.
Ok, so some of the more repeatable comments where "that I should grow some balls" and that "u aren't man enough" for her! I feel like explaining exactly why those comments are a little bit more poignant in our case. But I really don't want everyone to know before I get the right opportunity to tell people in my own way, I'm only at 3 in my outing number so far. I really wish I could lay this ghost of the past to rest, but I fear until I tell her she is just going to keep contacting me with some very worrying threats added, especially directed towards me and my family. But then I have no guarantee that even if I did tell her that it would solve her extreme swings, between pity that we failed and hatred towards me.
I feel tempted to just ignore her, but I want her to move on and I feel that if I can't explain it then I should be a bit of a punching bag. Yet I know that is extremely unhealthy. God I hope she finds someone else soon! Any ideas how I can diffuse this?
