Hi Mellsupport
Your post is touching, really, so much grieves and still supporting.
I can understand your feelings, it look like the one you loved is dying and you have mourning feelings now.
You know, transition does mixed up the life who is going to transition but also the life of the SO.
The both of you have a common past, children common friends and relatives and now it's changing everything.
People makes plans for the future and they think that's what it's going to be, everyone does that, now it seems that life is like sand in your hands, you can't keep it in your hands but it's going trough your fingers out of your hands.
Of course, this makes you sad and insecure about what's going to happen.
I really can't say of this feeling will disappear, I'll hope it for you but it depends on the relation you had and will be having together.
Are the both of you capable to manage the new situation? Do you still love eachother? Do the both of you want to fight to keep your relation good?
If the answers on these quistion is yes, than I think it will be okay in a matter of time.
Sure, it will be different, but it can be as happy as it was, sometimes even better because nobody has to play a role anymore.
Think about it, that's what you are losing, not your husband but someone who plays the role as a husband.
Instead of that you will get a person back who is just the one she is allways been but had to hide for the world.
I hope the both of you will find the strenght to handle this.
The way you have written this post I think you can, you look a brave and strong woman to me.
love
annette
