Vrony, hay its me whos slow to reply now 🙂 i feel for you its a bad place to be at and you should have a outlet for yourself, a chance to speak with others face to face i hope you find this.
All the way through my transition i have begged for help, and had nothing from anyone, even other TS have turned there back on me, so i go it alone, i have respect for you and your situation i do understand the place you are at with your kin. x