Ok, so today I'm told two things:
Firstly, a friend of mine whose family I'm out to told me her mom had called be beautiful, a term she usually reserves for particularly attractive girls, and that a friend of her had seen me and gendered me female - actually, she'd been a bit confused, but leaning towards female.
This same friend introduced me to her gaming group once, and told them I was trans. One member of that group asked "Which way?", and when he heard I was MTF he said "Good, 'cause if it was the other way around, she wouldn't have a very good starting point!"
So now I'm feeling awfully perky and happy, which is a rare feeling indeed. I mean, I'm still, like, a year pre-HRT, and I have
no way to judge my own appearance - when I look in the mirror, I bounce between "I'm actually kinda cute! How come I don't pass automatically to everybody?" and "My god, he looks like a Cro-Magnon! I'm
never gonna pass" with seemingly nothing in-between, so I have no way to judge for myself. I also tend to second guess any compliments I get from other people - when I'm gendered female, I always suspect that they read me as male and do so to mock my hair, and if someone compliments me on my appearance I always assume they're lying in order to make me feel better.
In these three cases, however, I have reason to believe that the people who said it, meant it.
So right now I'm feeeling very good about myself and my transition. It will pass in time, but for now, the train has stopped at Happyville
!
Sorry - I just felt the need to blurt this out somewhere.
