I felt like I should've been born male when I was a little kid (6 or younger, idk), but figured there was nothing I could do about it so I repressed it for years. When I was 15 I found out that transmen actually exist, but I couldn't accept that I was trans. At 18 I knew I had to do something about it but was scared of social rejection, so I figured I'd just be a very butch lesbian since I was already openly gay. At 19 I came to terms with it all, but I was worried about timing my transition perfectly so I could live in stealth, and figured I wouldn't transition until several years later. Now I'm almost 21 and I've decided to be out and proud shortly after I get my own apartment, and I'm hoping to start T before my 21st birthday. Or I could start taking T on my birthday, that would be a good present for myself 🙂