I randomly stumbled upon this site searching for some tips for passing.
It's nice to see such a large transgender community online! Hopefully I can settle in here~
You can call me
Envy.
I'm a 19 year old FTM from New England.
I haven' taken the initiative to begin a true transition due to the uncertainty that I've faced for most of my life.
I've always thought I should've been born a boy, especially since I was strongly influenced by my older brother when I was little.
I was always treated differently than my brother, forced to wear dresses against my will, and having my life restricted, despite feeling like a little boy just like him.
Doing Tae Kwon Do when I was 4 is what made me feel masculine initially, but my lack of confidence and confusion of gender boundaries caused me to be bullied for the majority of my life, especially being teased for being thought of as lesbian.
I honestly thought I was just another one of nature's eff-ups until I learned about ->-bleeped-<- in 9th grade, in which I was forced into a religious private school. (Worst year of my life, not only due to the fact that I'm an atheist, but due to the inequality of genders in Judaism)
I didn't really begin to identify myself as transgender until starting college last fall, where I met another FTM, although I've been convinced for about 4 years now.
Since meeting him, I started my transition little by little, firstly by dressing more masculine, wearing a chest binder, and tying my hair up and into a hat,
but recently, I've become unsure yet again of my gender, especially since I'm becoming close to a boy for the first time in my life. [I've only been with girls in the past]
Hopefully becoming part of this community can allow me to reflect on myself and learn more from others ♥
Recent pic of myself:
http://i1019.photobucket.com/albums/af315/gokugashuu/blahhhh.jpg
