Quote from: Yakshini on April 06, 2011, 09:26:14 PM
But what I am seeing is Athiests being cynical people. I am a cynical athiest, and sometimes I just wish I could give up just a little bit of reason if it meant I could be happy. I'm sick of being sad and cynical, I want to feel like no matter how much Hell I go through on Earth, I will still have a heaven to go to. I want to feel that no matter how few friends I have, God will always love me. There is nothing happy about dying, being buried in the ground, and that is the end. Granted, once you are dead you wouldn't be capable of caring what your state of being is, it's a sad thought to know that is the end. If I were on my death bed, I would want the comfort of knowing I'd soon be in Heaven.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just different. I don't personally think it's stupid or weak to desire faith.
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I understand where you're coming from. Personally I'm agnostic (and have always been a bit of a philosopher). For me it came down to a choice: Do I value what is real (and often uncomfortable) more? Or do I value
feeling good/safe/loved/being-rewarded-after-this-life...essentially...having faith in something...even if I'm just imagining it?
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I agree, it would be easier. It would...feel nice...it would feel very nice to have faith again. Blind faith. Beliefs independant of, and ignorant of facts. Unfortunately, such a thing runs counter to what I value.
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Growing up, I was around some pretty paranoid extremist people/churches. I saw first-hand what that sort of faith can do unchecked. I saw the harm, the hate, and the ability to self justify anything those people wanted to justify (often hurtful to others, despite their other supposed beliefs)...because they weren't bound by anything factual or real. If they believed it, it must be so...and there was no convincing them otherwise. I would never consciously choose to be that sort of person.
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Those were some pretty extreme people though. Not all people who have faith get so very lost. But from what I've seen, the vast majority still have very blurred lines between reality and what they choose to believe. It doesn't have to be that way, but people who can actively make the distinction and still retain some sort of faith are quite rare. In 37 years, I've met exactly 2 people who were able to accomplish that. It's not an easy balancing act.
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As an agnostic, I guess I don't see myself as cynical. Realistic perhaps. Skeptical , yes. Cynical though, goes a bit beyond that. I suppose cynicism is when all hope is gone. Some athiests do get that way, but they don't necessarily have to. An absence of faith doesn't necessarily have to mean a complete absence of hope.
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But I do agree, that it would feel nice to be free to throw out this reality and substitute my own for a bit.

I just can't do it anymore, and feel that I'm being true to myself and to my values. Not even in exchange for that feel-good Pollyanna innocence (and ignorance) that comes with it.