Last time I posted I was pre everything. My transition is almost complete!

[CrazyTina]

The folks on Chat have been with me through the whole way.

I am coming back to the forum now that I am post-transition, but still pre-op (money  ), to help you all with your transitions.

You can do it! And I swear to you, I make it my sole purpose to help you along the way.

Here is a small snip of inspiration.



Peace and Light, and I will see you all around on the forum!

[SaveMeJeebus]

I nearly burst out crying, but I holded them back. I've got water-eyes while typing, and I'm pretty speechless. This is an inspirational to so many people; I can't believe that you've been through so much, but obviously fantastic to hear you're looking up & hopeful.
P.S You should get on your motorbike more often.

[Stephanie Stephens]

Christina, my heart goes out to you - I posted your video on my web site. I am wishing you all the luck, love and happiness in the world.
OH you made me cry like a baby.

[CrazyTina]

I nearly burst out crying, but I holded them back. I've got water-eyes while typing, and I'm pretty speechless. This is an inspirational to so many people; I can't believe that you've been through so much, but obviously fantastic to hear you're looking up & hopeful.
P.S You should get on your motorbike more often.

Crying is so good for you dear. It is cathartic and can heal your soul. Though I can understand wanting to hold them back... but tell you the truth, if you never let the tears flow your soul will never heal and you will feel disconnected.

Lol about my bike... if I could get the thing to start I would be out there with my thong hangin' out doin' 70 on the freeway. The bike sounds like it is about to start but it is like there is no gas going to the engine because the engine never starts no matter how long I hold the start button.  I checked the petcock,  it looks okay, and there is gas in the tank, and the choke if full on... I am also thinking that it may be a stuck float in the carbs, which may be why the petcock leaks.

[CrazyTina]

Christina, my heart goes out to you - I posted your video on my web site. I am wishing you all the luck, love and happiness in the world.
OH you made me cry like a baby.

Luv you <3

[SaveMeJeebus]

Crying is so good for you dear. It is cathartic and can heal your soul. Though I can understand wanting to hold them back... but tell you the truth, if you never let the tears flow your soul will never heal and you will feel disconnected.

Lol about my bike... if I could get the thing to start I would be out there with my thong hangin' out doin' 70 on the freeway. The bike sounds like it is about to start but it is like there is no gas going to the engine because the engine never starts no matter how long I hold the start button.  I checked the petcock,  it looks okay, and there is gas in the tank, and the choke if full on... I am also thinking that it may be a stuck float in the carbs, which may be why the petcock leaks.

I have people around the house... that's why i hold them back. Not really a great excuse, but hey ho. Pssht, i could make little sense of that as i'm clueless when it comes to motorbikes & cars ; get someone to look over it though, so you can "ride on the freeway with your thong hanging out" Tut 

[CrazyTina]

@Save
Yeah, luckily I was kidding about the 70 miles per hour part... that is just dangerous! But the thong part... I might just do that. 

In all seriousness, it might be wise to take a time out somewhere alone to just enjoy a good cry. Even men cry. Don't be ashamed.

Love you.

[SaveMeJeebus]

Citrine Oak,
I could detect you were kidding going 70 MPH. If you want to show off then you do that. 
I prefer sobbing a little, but not all blown out. I'd rather think positive than negative. I'm not ashamed; i love it.
~ Runs away ~ (Kid), thanks though  .

[Sandy]

Yes, you can do it!

Thank you for your inspiration, Citrine.

-Sandy

[Janet_Girl]

I am sorry to hear of the problems you had.  I knew about the living in the car, in the middle of winter.  But I did know about the rapes.

Your story is exactly why a secure place needs to be created, just for Transpeople.

You're doing good kid.

Many , Sis.

[Devlyn]

Hi Christina, nice to meet you! Hope to share the rest of your journey, hugs, Tracey

[soulfairer]

Hi, Christina,

Sad story. That touched my heart. Hope you continue having a safe shelter like Sky. We sometimes are granted some safe shelters in life, as somewhat happened to me, but, still, I didn't come out. I can't really say that I'm "safe" and still have some fears about employment and acceptance, even being fairly safe about my professional skills.

I can't imagine how hard that was, nor how good it was to get out of that situation.

Thank you for sharing, made me think, again, about life.

-Laila

[Gabby]

awwwww Christina someone said about your video and I just found it right now.  I'm so glad you're here for us all, you've been through some really tough times indeed, now I'm crying too.

Love ya xxxx

[CrazyTina]

awwwww Christina someone said about your video and I just found it right now.  I'm so glad you're here for us all, you've been through some really tough times indeed, now I'm crying too.

Love ya xxxx

I guess you have to be trans to understand this video... Sky watched it and she showed no emotion other than saying "It was really powerful" ... ... I asked her if it made her feel like crying/get a tear in her eye, she said no way.

Well, what ever, it was no meant to make people cry, it was supposed to inspire people... crying is just a pleasant side effect.

[Bird]

I agree with the other posters and with you, I gues you have to be trans to fully comprehend this. I know I do. I wish you the best.

[Gabby]

Haha Christina the tears are part for you and part for me, sorry I am selfish lol.

You've led a life which if I'd taken different paths could easily have been mine.

Bigoted parents, not coming out (near everyone was bigoted back when I was a teenager, it's better now but still a real issue), I have  resentment towards my mum for not thinking she did anything wrong, I've lost many good years.  I think she might have kicked me out but she'd have wanted me to come back I know that, would I have wanted too is another matter.  I'm still feeling deep resentment.

Running away but I didn't, you've shown what could have happened, I was young and naive and the world can be bloody awful.  You had to make your own way, it's part of the reason why I'm finding it hard to write this because I don't know your situation with your parents.

BDSM, this is something which I have a theory for:  a female mind raised to think it is male but it obviously has no male sex drive, so sexual thoughts of a certain kind occur (might be a different kind of BDSM for you but it applies to me).  It's the supressed female sex drive, which I always knew I had anyway.

I've written several replies which I wanted to get right as you people matter to me and my shoulder aches arghhh.

Edited to clarify I am not a BDSM is for fun in my eyes, too much pain is like arghh turn off.