Time for official foot-shooting! It's a sport these days, you know? ^^ I picked a time where the TStalk was quiet...and...I just said random things on my mind. Some of them I feel are stupid and/or redundant for me to remark on...but they're in my head, so, I guess they can't be THAT stupid that they shouldn't be existent or something, right?
Mm...but yeah. It's probably not healthy to talk to myself, especially in public, so...uhm...here goes!
<Sabriel-Facrin> ....I've been really getting sensitive about my breasts lately...rather, my lackof.
<Sabriel-Facrin> I'm really glad for people getting breasts...but I'm a little jealous...It also has me worried that my mom's breasts look like an ok size, but they're not impressive AFTER implants is what bothers me.
<Sabriel-Facrin> Ugh...I just...feel...blehg. This sensation of how my body's supposed to be a female form, just overlapping the shape of my body.
<Sabriel-Facrin> I'm thinking about maybe getting a blog, but, if I do I'd just put nothing on it too... o.o; much less would I feel happy to share with anyone. >.< I think I'm making a lot of my own problems by overcomplicating things.
<Sabriel-Facrin> Top ito ff....I feel like I'm really whiny and moody and 'I know everything' egotistical...when everyone's trying to be nice...And I'm worried about when people say that something or another isn't very girly. What if I'm a female who's not very female in nature? D: It's weird, but what if that's ow it is? ;.;
<Sabriel-Facrin> ...mmm...I wonder if it'd be bad to get implants...I kind of oppose them...and what if my breasts grow AFTER I implant and they get too big? x.x; ...what if they get too big and I refuse to acknowledge it...? *Fritz* Breasts are way too many questions ;.;
<Sabriel-Facrin> I feel like I'm way too scared of too many things at this point x.x; I feel like I'm scared of how much it'll cost to take care of blood test stuff, too... D: >.< I guess I should flat-out call and deal withi t
<Sabriel-Facrin> Maybe I'm hypocritical for trying to encourage people...but not really feeling that confident myself -.- I'm just glad when I help people...
* Sabriel-Facrin looks up. "...Granted I'm rediculously insecure about my means of writing my thoughts out."
* Sabriel-Facrin glances at main chat. "Mmm...I don't feel like I regressed. But I've been spazzing tons since..." ***
<Sabriel-Facrin> ...Kind of like I've been doing all day when nobody was really here.
*** - The above references a comment when someone said sometimes people act young again as if to try to make up for lost time of the other gender or something like that.
I don't think this covers much of everything I'm feeling, but meh, start? ^^;
