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Title: This was a poem I wrote awhile back, it's kind of dark though
Post by: Jessica on September 14, 2005, 04:45:54 PM
Post by: Jessica on September 14, 2005, 04:45:54 PM
The death of my soul goes unnoticed because of the plastered smile
That I have placed across my face while moving through this life
I'm a stranger in this world, I don't want to stay, not one more day
I have walked far more than I should have here, mile after long mile.
I know that many love and care, but that doesn't ease my soul's strife
You see, I still pray to die and very few know why, for a grave I pray.
Pain have I and tears plenty. Enough for a river I have cried inside.
I want an end; a darkness eternal, to sleep; to forget and never care.
I know God loves me, I know Jesus paid the fee, but I have to be free
From the cares of this world. Hopelessness, like a tide, washes over me.
I have done what I can here. There are few with whom I can share
Why I have this despair. For it is an end of this suffering that I plea.
I am caged in a body that should not be mine.
Bound by society with shackles unshined
Cornered by thoughts spinning in my head
I am certain that I would be better dead
All will be well when I can escape.
It's now or never; before courage breaks
To find the strength to make the strike
To feel the daggers cold steel bite.
I failed, I failed, I failed this time!
I couldn't drive that dagger deep
So I sit in my bathroom and I weep
I lacked the will for eternal sleep.
I beg that I won't falter next time!
I pray that God above will know
That I did my best here below
That I love him and his son so
Grant me strength to deal the blow.
I ask your forgiveness for all my sins
I pray that you will let me start again
But next time please make this right
And don't give me this awful plight
Just let me be the girl that I am inside
So I can live my life without the lies
That I have told to others and to me.
And please open the eyes of our society
God, Please let me die.
So that truly I can say
I lived my life your way
That I have placed across my face while moving through this life
I'm a stranger in this world, I don't want to stay, not one more day
I have walked far more than I should have here, mile after long mile.
I know that many love and care, but that doesn't ease my soul's strife
You see, I still pray to die and very few know why, for a grave I pray.
Pain have I and tears plenty. Enough for a river I have cried inside.
I want an end; a darkness eternal, to sleep; to forget and never care.
I know God loves me, I know Jesus paid the fee, but I have to be free
From the cares of this world. Hopelessness, like a tide, washes over me.
I have done what I can here. There are few with whom I can share
Why I have this despair. For it is an end of this suffering that I plea.
I am caged in a body that should not be mine.
Bound by society with shackles unshined
Cornered by thoughts spinning in my head
I am certain that I would be better dead
All will be well when I can escape.
It's now or never; before courage breaks
To find the strength to make the strike
To feel the daggers cold steel bite.
I failed, I failed, I failed this time!
I couldn't drive that dagger deep
So I sit in my bathroom and I weep
I lacked the will for eternal sleep.
I beg that I won't falter next time!
I pray that God above will know
That I did my best here below
That I love him and his son so
Grant me strength to deal the blow.
I ask your forgiveness for all my sins
I pray that you will let me start again
But next time please make this right
And don't give me this awful plight
Just let me be the girl that I am inside
So I can live my life without the lies
That I have told to others and to me.
And please open the eyes of our society
God, Please let me die.
So that truly I can say
I lived my life your way
Title: Re: This was a poem I wrote awhile back, it's kind of dark though
Post by: joanna on September 20, 2005, 09:50:04 PM
Post by: joanna on September 20, 2005, 09:50:04 PM
hi Jessica,
I loved your poem, but you were right it's kinda dark.
There was a time in my life that I too had thoughts
such as this. But somehow I made it through without
doing something bad to myself. Until I know for sure
what is on the other side, I'm staying right here. Life
may not be fair at times, but they say it all evens out in
the end. We will just have to wait and see.
love,
joanna
Title: Re: This was a poem I wrote awhile back, it's kind of dark though
Post by: Sarah Louise on September 21, 2005, 09:15:24 AM
Post by: Sarah Louise on September 21, 2005, 09:15:24 AM
I think your poem is very good. I don't necessarily find it "dark", just an honest sharing of thoughts and feelings. I think many people go through feelings like that wether or not they are TS.
But then Edgar Allen Poe was one of my favorite poets. I even memorized The Raven for a homework assignment in high school. I used to write poems and they were all considered "dark" by those who read them.
Sarah
But then Edgar Allen Poe was one of my favorite poets. I even memorized The Raven for a homework assignment in high school. I used to write poems and they were all considered "dark" by those who read them.
Sarah