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It's a place from my imagination where I'd like to live.

I don't have an avatar available to me yet, so I decided to take a selfie.

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 18, 2024, 08:03:12 AMIt's a place from my imagination where I'd like to live.

Our Forum Admin, Danielle (Northern Star Girl), lives in northern Alaska. This could be a scene from her place...

in July.  ;D

@CaringWhisper very talented. Love the art work.

Quote from: Robbyv213 on September 18, 2024, 09:21:41 AM@CaringWhisper very talented. Love the art work.

Thank you

Quote from: Lori Dee on September 18, 2024, 09:18:25 AMOur Forum Admin, Danielle (Northern Star Girl), lives in northern Alaska. This could be a scene from her place...
in July.  ;D

Do you want to know a terrible secret? I'm from Russia. I didn't specify the country at first because I was afraid off. I live in a place where summers are very hot sometimes (but not this year) because of the warm winds from the steppe and very cold winters, when I was in elementary school, I remember classes being canceled because of a hard freezes. Frost was forming on my eyelashes.

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 18, 2024, 09:36:12 AMDo you want to know a terrible secret? I'm from Russia. I didn't specify a country at first because I was afraid off.

We have members here from around the world. Have no fear, you are very welcome here!

Hugs!

Lori Dee

@CaringWhisper
Dear CaringWhisper:
I am so very glad to see that you have registered as a new member here on the Susan's Place Forum.

I enjoyed viewing your artwork that you shared and I am hoping that you will post more.

I know that you will find information and discussions on the Forum that will interest you and answer some of your questions.
Please continue to get involved in sharing your thoughts and comments on the various threads, topics, and subjects.

Again, WELCOME to our Forum.
Warmest Regards,
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 18, 2024, 09:09:07 AMI don't have an avatar available to me yet, so I decided to take a selfie.

Quote from: Northern Star Girl on September 18, 2024, 09:42:08 AM@CaringWhisper
Dear CaringWhisper:
I am so very glad to see that you have registered as a new member here on the Susan's Place Forum.

I enjoyed viewing your artwork that you shared and I am hoping that you will post more.
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

Some quickie. I don't think my work is worth admiring, I do it just for fun. Right now I'm dreaming of watermelons. Unfortunately, the season for juicy delicious watermelons is over at my place, the fall. You look really good, by the way. P.S. How much offtopic am I creating (

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 18, 2024, 10:55:50 AMP.S. How much offtopic am I creating (

This is a good place to showcase your art. It is not off-topic. You can always change the title to something more generic, like My Paintings, or something to show that it is not just about a house. Just a suggestion. I enjoy your work. You have talent for sure!

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 18, 2024, 08:03:12 AMIt's a place from my imagination where I'd like to live.

That is a nice vista.

CaringWhisper, your artwork is beautiful! I'm only good at drawing things with ruler, so I admire anyone who has the talent to draw and paint. As others have mentioned, you are always welcome to show off your work here. It's easy for us to rename the thread to something more inclusive of your work. Thanks for sharing some of your amazing art with us.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

Quote from: Jessica_Rose on September 18, 2024, 12:54:01 PMCaringWhisper, your artwork is beautiful! I'm only good at drawing things with ruler, so I admire anyone who has the talent to draw and paint. As others have mentioned, you are always welcome to show off your work here. It's easy for us to rename the thread to something more inclusive of your work. Thanks for sharing some of your amazing art with us.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

Thank you Jessica. Unfortunately it's too late for renaming or I don't understand how to do it. But anyway, today I decided to do something diffirent - ttaddam Ladies, here is all colors and shades that the human eye can see, I spent 2 hours for it. Maybe it's look like a trash but I do all here just for fun anyway.

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 20, 2024, 03:09:17 AMThank you Jessica. Unfortunately it's too late for renaming or I don't understand how to do it.

The Moderators and Admin can change the title for you, just let us know what you want to call it. Only the title would change not links to it or anything in the thread.

I love the colors. I find that interesting.

Painting animals sounds interesting. 

I love the artwork. It's beautiful. Hugs
Mariah

Thats's a beautiful piece of art!

I can just imagine getting cozy with a blanket and a hot drink on a cold evening   ^-^

Ya, very pretty!

Chrissy

Thank you my friends for the kind words. I'm tired of bright colors today, my soul wants something black and white for a change.

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on September 20, 2024, 05:29:24 PMPainting animals sounds interesting.

My cat will be painted next.

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 21, 2024, 12:25:54 AMThank you my friends for the kind words. I'm tired of bright colors today, my soul wants something black and white for a change.
My cat will be painted next.

Lovely, evoking a wide range of emotions, from mystery to strength and power.

Darkness, death, or evil, while white can represent purity, innocence, or hope.

I love to wear black and white often. Shoulder length curly salt and pepper hair, black lipstick, black finger and toe nails, and a mixture of black and white clothing and accessories.

Quote from: Lilis on September 21, 2024, 02:06:14 AMLovely, evoking a wide range of emotions, from mystery to strength and power. Darkness, death, or evil, while white can represent purity, innocence, or hope.

I love to wear black and white often. Shoulder length curly salt and pepper hair, black lipstick, black finger and toe nails, and a mixture of black and white clothing and accessories.

I believe that stepping into the dark it's a symbol of purification and hope by itself, my fears is no longer hold me back and in the darkness a ray of sunrise is more much visible. Carl Jung wrote about the shadow, the part of the personality that is outside the field of consciousness. Ignoring or suppressing the shadow leads to inner conflicts and self-destruction. The shadow is a moral issue that is challenging your inner self, no one can recognize its presence without rejecting morality and accepting the darker sides of a person. Dark colors help to soften the inner contradictions with the shadow, I can't explain it more precisely but I feel it. I like to dress gothic sometimes too. I was often beaten as a child but now I have found a compromise with my inner demons from childhood and know what true love and friendship is.

@CaringWhisper
I am enjoying your drawings...  Please continue posting your art work.

.... and I much like your Avatar Profile photo.

Thank you for becoming a member here on Susan's Place and the Forum.  I hope
and trust that you will continue to share your story with us and in return I hope
that you are finding helpful information here, but also making some friends.

Warmest Regards, 
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

I love the black and white.

I love this. That is really beautiful!

Thank you for sharing.

Thank you to everyone who has posted in this thread, I have read every post of yours. In time I'll pick up a real canvas, not just sheets of paper and a notebook.

Quote from: Northern Star Girl on September 21, 2024, 03:21:30 AM@CaringWhisper
I am enjoying your drawings...  Please continue posting your art work.

.... and I much like your Avatar Profile photo.

Thank you for becoming a member here on Susan's Place and the Forum.  I hope
and trust that you will continue to share your story with us and in return I hope
that you are finding helpful information here, but also making some friends.

Warmest Regards, 
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

I'm uncomfortable with the attention, so I waited before responding.

My thanks to all the forum members for accepting me. I was looking for a quiet place with kind people to give expression to my feelings because my reality is grim, a difficult and dangerous life situation. I will definitely continue my blog when I will have time and energy, I lose my sense of time while painting, sinking into a kind of apathy.

Here is my cat Busya (yeah, sounds funny to an english speaker, like a bus) and a flower, I was having a trouble with Busya's lower lip but I don't have the energy and time left to fix it.  I need to be prepared for monday and pay more attention to my daughter.

Quote from: Lilis on September 21, 2024, 02:06:14 AMDarkness, death, or evil, while white can represent purity, innocence, or hope.

These words I would say to my love: -"Show me your darkness and I will show mine. Let's step into it together, my hand in yours. There's no fear, no pain, no-one and nothing can seduce us anymore, we're pure now."

@CaringWhisper

You are among friends here. We may be scattered around the world, but we care and support you. Come and go as you please. Family and safety come first. Take whatever time you need and check in when it is safe to do so.

I really enjoy your posts.

Hugs from all of us!

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 21, 2024, 12:25:54 AMThank you my friends for the kind words. I'm tired of bright colors today, my soul wants something black and white for a change.
My cat will be painted next.

I think it will look nice.

@CaringWhisper , your work is beautiful. I see it as a window into your soul. Thanks for coming here and sharing some of your work with us. Stay safe.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 21, 2024, 10:11:07 AM

QuoteDarkness, death, or evil, while white can represent purity, innocence, or hope.

These words I would say to my love: -"Show me your darkness and I will show mine. Let's step into it together, my hand in yours. There's no fear, no pain, no-one and nothing can seduce us anymore, we're pure now."

That's a powerful and evocative message that really touched me. It highlights the importance of honesty, openness, and deep trust in a relationship. It's a rare and beautiful thing to find someone with whom you can share your most vulnerable self. This message made me think about the challenges of finding such a connection and even brought tears to my eyes.

Thanks for sharing this with me, and best wishes to you and your daughter.

~ Your work is amazing!

Thank you for your posts and for being a courageous, supportive and caring mother of a transgender child.  That is often not the case even in places where the authorities are still more tolerant of transgender people.

Quote from: MaryT on September 22, 2024, 01:46:00 PMThank you for your posts and for being a courageous, supportive and caring mother of a transgender child.  That is often not the case even in places where the authorities are still more tolerant of transgender people.

I doubt my bravery, I'm afraid I'm gonna break.

The site is a sanctuary for me in hard times, a place where there are no crowds and people I have no fear of.  Meta company sites like Facebook are blocked in my country, and since these sites are blocking all VPNs I don't have access to them. For example, I was recently banned on instagram just because of bad VPN (seems so). I appreciate this site and thank you all for keeping it alive, it helps me a lot.

I just want to enjoy every day and not think about the future.

In the fall, I think about flowers:

Cats can be nice.  Nice depiction.

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on September 26, 2024, 05:52:26 PMCats can be nice.  Nice depiction.

Yeah, I'm planning something more serious with the cats. My cat Busia is painted above with the flower.

Nothing's changed since I was a kid, I'm still a dreamer.

It's a gift especially for ChrissyRyan. I don't know how you look like in a real life, but I realized you like cats so that's how I picture you. I hope you will appreciate my sense of humor my sweet kitty Lady )

P.S. I decided to go back to watercolor and a simple a4 sheet so things wouldn't be so grim. I can't afford a real canvas yet.

P.P.S. If I get my hands on a real canvas, I will paint with a sponge as it is the easiest. I have in my mind something snowy, with northern lights, something that would please Northern Star Girl.

@CaringWhisper

  I will send you a private message with few photos that you may find art-worthy.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

Quote from: CaringWhisper on September 18, 2024, 08:03:12 AMIt's a place from my imagination where I'd like to live.

Yeah, that's somewhere I'd like to live, too. Somewhere cold and snowy. :) With the majesty of nature around whenever the minutiae of life gets too much.

Also... Sweetie, you are beautiful. You have a crystalline beauty. Your eyes are very expressive. Someone who sees everything. But someone treading on freshly fallen snow. Sometimes not sure of their next footstep, but seeing where they want to go. Thank you for this. <3

Quote from: Northern Star Girl on September 28, 2024, 03:24:23 PM @CaringWhisper

  I will send you a private message with few photos that you may find art-worthy.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

I'll be waiting, thank you.

Quote from: Sephirah on September 28, 2024, 03:32:06 PMYeah, that's somewhere I'd like to live, too. Somewhere cold and snowy. :) With the majesty of nature around whenever the minutiae of life gets too much.

Also... Sweetie, you are beautiful. You have a crystalline beauty. Your eyes are very expressive. Someone who sees everything. But someone treading on freshly fallen snow. Sometimes not sure of their next footstep, but seeing where they want to go. Thank you for this. <3

Do you believe in the infinity of life? Maybe in past lives you and I and others like us lived somewhere in the snowy lands and we are subconsciously drawn there? Thank you for the compliment. I compliment your soul, your soul is beautiful.

What I drew is just an expression of my feelings, no value specifically in this one. My hands have been shaking lately. I wanted to portray my soul as a ballerina dancing in the darkness on the white snow.

@CaringWhisper
Check your Forum private message inbox...  I have sent you lots of pictures !!!
HUGS, Danielle

Quote from: CaringWhisper on October 04, 2024, 03:02:17 PMWhat I drew is just an expression of my feelings, no value specifically in this one. My hands have been shaking lately. I wanted to portray my soul as a ballerina dancing in the darkness on the white snow.

Just as a ballerina dances through the shadows in the snow, you can find your way through the darkness with courage and resilience.

Okay my beautiful ladys, it's time for some serious business... Painted with a dishwashing sponge..... Ta-da-mn: Alaska!

Quote from: Lilis on October 06, 2024, 01:05:31 PMJust as a ballerina dances through the shadows in the snow, you can find your way through the darkness with courage and resilience.

And with the suffering. All ballerinas erase the toenail on their big toe until it bleeds.

@CaringWhisper

  VERY beautiful artwork... thank you for sharing your art talent with all of us
on the Forum with your posting.

  *** I like how you included the reflections on the lake from the Northern Lights

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

Quote from: CaringWhisper on October 10, 2024, 10:23:37 AMAnd with the suffering. All ballerinas erase the toenail on their big toe until it bleeds.

Ouch.. hopefully there are safer and more effective ways to achieve the desired pointe shoe fit.  ;D

Quote from: Northern Star Girl on October 10, 2024, 11:20:34 AM@CaringWhisper

  VERY beautiful artwork... thank you for sharing your art talent with all of us
on the Forum with your posting.

  *** I like how you included the reflections on the lake from the Northern Lights

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

I'm glad that you like it, it was created for you.

Quote from: Lilis on October 14, 2024, 07:40:25 PMOuch.. hopefully there are safer and more effective ways to achieve the desired pointe shoe fit.  ;D

I don't know if the english language has an equivalent to the proverb "we don't look for easy paths". Even I don't know why everyone repeats it and follows it at my place. It's crazy, but a lot of people here are programmed to take the hard way, the easy way is not honorable to them. It's just an interesting oddity.

A farewell to the fall
Goodbye, my friend. I hope this is not the last autumn in my life....

P.S. The photo was over 2 megabytes and didn't want to attach so I had to reduce the size.

Quote from: CaringWhisper on October 21, 2024, 11:53:54 PMI don't know if the english language has an equivalent to the proverb "we don't look for easy paths". Even I don't know why everyone repeats it and follows it at my place. It's crazy, but a lot of people here are programmed to take the hard way, the easy way is not honorable to them. It's just an interesting oddity.

A farewell to the fall. Goodbye, my friend. I hope this is not the last autumn in my life....

P.S. The photo was over 2 megabytes and didn't want to attach so I had to reduce the size.

I think the proverb implies laziness. Instead of taking the easy path, it is more honorable to be strong and endure hardship.

Beautiful painting!

@CaringWhisper
I would like to see more of your artwork and drawings... you do beautiful work and I much
enjoy viewing your beautiful art.    I hope that all is well with you today.

Here where I live it has been very cold 9 degrees (f)  [minus -13 deg C]
.... and it has been SNOWING ....  I love the fresh snow.
            (https://i.imgur.com/Xi7V4DAl.jpg)

I will be eagerly looking for your next postings here on your thread and elsewhere on
the other various threads here on the Forum.
HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

Hello Dear Ladies. Thank you, Danielle and Lori.
In my town I have a reputation of a crazy woman for what I've done, if I lived during the witch hunt years I would have been burned at the stake a long time ago. I feel phobic everywhere of everyone being looked at me like I'm crazy, the effect of bullying. Maybe I'm not actually the Caring Whisper but hysterical, su****dal lunatic. I realize that I make mistakes, I try to analyze them and not to make them in the future, but as soon as I get into a state of hysteria, I forget all this and make the same mistakes. That week of su****al thoughts hurts my body pretty badly. My eyes still hurt and I have a high fever. I cried all my tears and became emotionless. I just don't have the strength to stand, I fall to the floor and can't get up, I have no emotions, I realize I'm living in hell and everyone around me hates me, but I accept it coldly, with the realization of what's happening. If I may offend anyone with my dark thoughts, forgive me, I am afraid and feel shame. The only things that keeps me alive is painting and dancing, and my daughter of course, the main meaning of my life.

Sunset in the snowy mountains of Alaska

@CaringWhisper
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and comments... and some of your very beautiful artwork.

Here on the Forum we DO NOT think that you are a crazy woman. 
We care about your well-being and wish for you happiness and success
for your life and for your daughter's life.

  HOWEVER...
...please try to get those thoughts of self-harm out of your mind...  that will not
help your loved ones and family that depend on you... and will only hurt them for
the rest of their lives.

Please look at the following internet links.
    **Trans Lifeline:  Provides peer support and crisis** **intervention**
    **for transgender and non-binary people.**
    Visit: https://translifeline.org/

    **The Trevor Project:  Provides crisis intervention and suicide**
    **prevention services for LGBTQ+ :**
    Visit:  https://www.thetrevorproject.org/

    **The Trevor Project's[/size][/b] resources for parents and allies: **
    https://www.thetrevorproject.org/resources/article/friends-family-support-systems-for-lgbtq-youth/

  **The National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): Offers support and**
    **for people with mental health conditions, including LGBTQ+ individuals.**
    Visit:  https://www.nami.org/Home

    **The Jed Foundation:  Provides mental health resources and suicide prevention**
    **information.**
    Visit:  https://jedfoundation.org/

Any private questions and thoughts that you wish to share please continue to converse
with me via Private messaging.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

Quote from: Northern Star Girl on October 26, 2024, 09:57:12 PM@CaringWhisper
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and comments... and some of your very beautiful artwork.

Here on the Forum we DO NOT think that you are a crazy woman. 
We care about your well-being and wish for you happiness and success
for your life and for your daughter's life.

  HOWEVER...
...please try to get those thoughts of self-harm out of your mind...  that will not
help your loved ones and family that depend on you... and will only hurt them for
the rest of their lives.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

Thank you, Danielle, for your support. I've come to a conclusion, I won't act like this again. Besides, I can't be sick, tomorrow is monday and the money won't make itself. No more bad thoughts, I will continue to please you with my work. I'm out of that state, and I can say it's not worth it. Mistakes are okay if you realize them. Hugs, friends.

The Lake Ladoga at night

Quote from: CaringWhisper on October 26, 2024, 09:30:04 PMHello Dear Ladies. Thank you, Danielle and Lori.
In my town I have a reputation of a crazy woman for what I've done, ... I feel phobic everywhere of everyone being looked at me like I'm crazy, the effect of bullying. ... I realize I'm living in hell and everyone around me hates me,  ... I am afraid and feel shame. ...

You have nothing to be ashamed of. As your relationship with your child is scrutinised by authority figures, your fear is understandable, not phobic. 

I do not always practice what I preach but I believe that if people do not look frightened, they have less reason to feel fear. If I do not look suspiciously at other people, they are less likely to look suspiciously at me.  I realise that it is easier to say than to do. I wish that I had taken acting lessons.  Perhaps that would also be a good idea for soldiers and other people who sometimes need to appear more courageous than they feel.   

Quote from: CaringWhisper on November 08, 2024, 01:02:57 PMThe Lake Ladoga at night

You have quite a talent. I love your art.

We all have difficult times in our lives, but we have to find a reason to keep going. Things will get better eventually.

Love always -- Jess

No you are not crazy, Whisper. The people around you don't know you, don't know your daughter. You know that I speak from knowing you outside of this. You and Kat both. You are not crazy, honey. You are beautiful, and your little girl is beautiful... if obsessed with rap music, lol.

You see the beauty in all things, as does she. You see the good in people, and I want Kat to see the good in people, to live a life outside of what she's had to deal with. You are fireflies trapped in a jar you want to escape from.

Never, ever feel shame, Whisper. You are one of the strongest people I've ever met. <3

Quote from: MaryT on November 08, 2024, 02:28:47 PMYou have nothing to be ashamed of. As your relationship with your child is scrutinised by authority figures, your fear is understandable, not phobic. 

I do not always practice what I preach but I believe that if people do not look frightened, they have less reason to feel fear. If I do not look suspiciously at other people, they are less likely to look suspiciously at me.  I realise that it is easier to say than to do. I wish that I had taken acting lessons.  Perhaps that would also be a good idea for soldiers and other people who sometimes need to appear more courageous than they feel.   

This is similar in some ways to predator and prey behavior. Predators recognize each other by their lack of fear, predators do not run away or be afraid, and the behavior of the prey awakens their violent instincts. Perhaps to some extent the shame they made me feel awakens this hunting instinct in them. Once they realize that I am a fighter, a predator, they may show some semblance of respect. I observe male nature in the course of my life, the aggression of men towards each other, I am trying to adopt some techniques in the defense of my child as a parent, but so far I can not copy male behavior from the word at all. I am used to acting softly, playing on other people's weaknesses using manipulation.

Quote from: Jessica_Rose on November 08, 2024, 07:37:10 PMYou have quite a talent. I love your art.

We all have difficult times in our lives, but we have to find a reason to keep going. Things will get better eventually.

Love always -- Jess

I think I will not wait for better times, but make happiness here and now, in my own little world. The problem is that my daughter and I will become hermits in a sense, but I think it's nothing, it's only temporary. The best time is the time spent with our relatives, I do not care about the rest of the world.

Quote from: Sephirah on November 09, 2024, 12:09:14 AMNo you are not crazy, Whisper. The people around you don't know you, don't know your daughter. You know that I speak from knowing you outside of this. You and Kat both. You are not crazy, honey. You are beautiful, and your little girl is beautiful... if obsessed with rap music, lol.

You see the beauty in all things, as does she. You see the good in people, and I want Kat to see the good in people, to live a life outside of what she's had to deal with. You are fireflies trapped in a jar you want to escape from.

Never, ever feel shame, Whisper. You are one of the strongest people I've ever met. <3

In hindsight, I probably wouldn't have gone down that path voluntarily. But it's been so far. A sea of tears, a lot of bruises on the body behind, indeed, with each new suffering pain is given easier, maybe this is the essence of the saying that what does not kill us makes us stronger. Any pain over time becomes too familiar, with which you get to negotiate as with an old enemy. Take care of yourself and your eyes, Katya and I will be fine, I won't let anyone hurt her.

Caring Whisper,


Merry Christmas!


Chrissy

You have some amazing paintings. Are you working with oil paints?

It's always the regular people that suffer in conflicts. Stay safe and I hope you can share more of your artwork.

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on December 24, 2024, 05:57:53 PMCaring Whisper,


Merry Christmas!


Chrissy

And Happy New Year

Hugs to all the people above.

Sephirah says that everything is cyclical, now is a hard time for everyone, a metaphorical winter, and no winter is scary if you know that spring will come after it. I would like to see lush and colorful flowers in the soul of everyone here, no matter what time of year it is. In addition, there are winter flowers, for which the cold does not interfere.

Utterly beautiful.

You have a gift. Spring will come. Like you say, we just have to get through the winter. :)