Quote from: Northern Star Girl on October 10, 2024, 11:20:34 AM@CaringWhisper

  VERY beautiful artwork... thank you for sharing your art talent with all of us
on the Forum with your posting.

  *** I like how you included the reflections on the lake from the Northern Lights

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

I'm glad that you like it, it was created for you.

Quote from: Lilis on October 14, 2024, 07:40:25 PMOuch.. hopefully there are safer and more effective ways to achieve the desired pointe shoe fit. 

I don't know if the english language has an equivalent to the proverb "we don't look for easy paths". Even I don't know why everyone repeats it and follows it at my place. It's crazy, but a lot of people here are programmed to take the hard way, the easy way is not honorable to them. It's just an interesting oddity.

A farewell to the fall
Goodbye, my friend. I hope this is not the last autumn in my life....

P.S. The photo was over 2 megabytes and didn't want to attach so I had to reduce the size.

Quote from: CaringWhisper on October 21, 2024, 11:53:54 PMI don't know if the english language has an equivalent to the proverb "we don't look for easy paths". Even I don't know why everyone repeats it and follows it at my place. It's crazy, but a lot of people here are programmed to take the hard way, the easy way is not honorable to them. It's just an interesting oddity.

A farewell to the fall. Goodbye, my friend. I hope this is not the last autumn in my life....

P.S. The photo was over 2 megabytes and didn't want to attach so I had to reduce the size.

I think the proverb implies laziness. Instead of taking the easy path, it is more honorable to be strong and endure hardship.

Beautiful painting!

@CaringWhisper
I would like to see more of your artwork and drawings... you do beautiful work and I much
enjoy viewing your beautiful art.    I hope that all is well with you today.

Here where I live it has been very cold 9 degrees (f)  [minus -13 deg C]
.... and it has been SNOWING ....  I love the fresh snow.
           

I will be eagerly looking for your next postings here on your thread and elsewhere on
the other various threads here on the Forum.
HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

Hello Dear Ladies. Thank you, Danielle and Lori.
In my town I have a reputation of a crazy woman for what I've done, if I lived during the witch hunt years I would have been burned at the stake a long time ago. I feel phobic everywhere of everyone being looked at me like I'm crazy, the effect of bullying. Maybe I'm not actually the Caring Whisper but hysterical, su****dal lunatic. I realize that I make mistakes, I try to analyze them and not to make them in the future, but as soon as I get into a state of hysteria, I forget all this and make the same mistakes. That week of su****al thoughts hurts my body pretty badly. My eyes still hurt and I have a high fever. I cried all my tears and became emotionless. I just don't have the strength to stand, I fall to the floor and can't get up, I have no emotions, I realize I'm living in hell and everyone around me hates me, but I accept it coldly, with the realization of what's happening. If I may offend anyone with my dark thoughts, forgive me, I am afraid and feel shame. The only things that keeps me alive is painting and dancing, and my daughter of course, the main meaning of my life.

Sunset in the snowy mountains of Alaska

@CaringWhisper
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and comments... and some of your very beautiful artwork.

Here on the Forum we DO NOT think that you are a crazy woman. 
We care about your well-being and wish for you happiness and success
for your life and for your daughter's life.

  HOWEVER...
...please try to get those thoughts of self-harm out of your mind...  that will not
help your loved ones and family that depend on you... and will only hurt them for
the rest of their lives.

Please look at the following internet links.
    **Trans Lifeline:  Provides peer support and crisis** **intervention**
    **for transgender and non-binary people.**
    Visit: https://translifeline.org/

    **The Trevor Project:  Provides crisis intervention and suicide**
    **prevention services for LGBTQ+ :**
    Visit:  https://www.thetrevorproject.org/

    **The Trevor Project's[/size][/b] resources for parents and allies: **
    https://www.thetrevorproject.org/resources/article/friends-family-support-systems-for-lgbtq-youth/

  **The National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): Offers support and**
    **for people with mental health conditions, including LGBTQ+ individuals.**
    Visit:  https://www.nami.org/Home

    **The Jed Foundation:  Provides mental health resources and suicide prevention**
    **information.**
    Visit:  https://jedfoundation.org/

Any private questions and thoughts that you wish to share please continue to converse
with me via Private messaging.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

Quote from: Northern Star Girl on October 26, 2024, 09:57:12 PM@CaringWhisper
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and comments... and some of your very beautiful artwork.

Here on the Forum we DO NOT think that you are a crazy woman. 
We care about your well-being and wish for you happiness and success
for your life and for your daughter's life.

  HOWEVER...
...please try to get those thoughts of self-harm out of your mind...  that will not
help your loved ones and family that depend on you... and will only hurt them for
the rest of their lives.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

Thank you, Danielle, for your support. I've come to a conclusion, I won't act like this again. Besides, I can't be sick, tomorrow is monday and the money won't make itself. No more bad thoughts, I will continue to please you with my work. I'm out of that state, and I can say it's not worth it. Mistakes are okay if you realize them. Hugs, friends.

The Lake Ladoga at night

Quote from: CaringWhisper on October 26, 2024, 09:30:04 PMHello Dear Ladies. Thank you, Danielle and Lori.
In my town I have a reputation of a crazy woman for what I've done, ... I feel phobic everywhere of everyone being looked at me like I'm crazy, the effect of bullying. ... I realize I'm living in hell and everyone around me hates me,  ... I am afraid and feel shame. ...

You have nothing to be ashamed of. As your relationship with your child is scrutinised by authority figures, your fear is understandable, not phobic. 

I do not always practice what I preach but I believe that if people do not look frightened, they have less reason to feel fear. If I do not look suspiciously at other people, they are less likely to look suspiciously at me.  I realise that it is easier to say than to do. I wish that I had taken acting lessons.  Perhaps that would also be a good idea for soldiers and other people who sometimes need to appear more courageous than they feel.   

Quote from: CaringWhisper on November 08, 2024, 01:02:57 PMThe Lake Ladoga at night

You have quite a talent. I love your art.

We all have difficult times in our lives, but we have to find a reason to keep going. Things will get better eventually.

Love always -- Jess

No you are not crazy, Whisper. The people around you don't know you, don't know your daughter. You know that I speak from knowing you outside of this. You and Kat both. You are not crazy, honey. You are beautiful, and your little girl is beautiful... if obsessed with rap music, lol.

You see the beauty in all things, as does she. You see the good in people, and I want Kat to see the good in people, to live a life outside of what she's had to deal with. You are fireflies trapped in a jar you want to escape from.

Never, ever feel shame, Whisper. You are one of the strongest people I've ever met. <3

Quote from: MaryT on November 08, 2024, 02:28:47 PMYou have nothing to be ashamed of. As your relationship with your child is scrutinised by authority figures, your fear is understandable, not phobic. 

I do not always practice what I preach but I believe that if people do not look frightened, they have less reason to feel fear. If I do not look suspiciously at other people, they are less likely to look suspiciously at me.  I realise that it is easier to say than to do. I wish that I had taken acting lessons.  Perhaps that would also be a good idea for soldiers and other people who sometimes need to appear more courageous than they feel.   

This is similar in some ways to predator and prey behavior. Predators recognize each other by their lack of fear, predators do not run away or be afraid, and the behavior of the prey awakens their violent instincts. Perhaps to some extent the shame they made me feel awakens this hunting instinct in them. Once they realize that I am a fighter, a predator, they may show some semblance of respect. I observe male nature in the course of my life, the aggression of men towards each other, I am trying to adopt some techniques in the defense of my child as a parent, but so far I can not copy male behavior from the word at all. I am used to acting softly, playing on other people's weaknesses using manipulation.

Quote from: Jessica_Rose on November 08, 2024, 07:37:10 PMYou have quite a talent. I love your art.

We all have difficult times in our lives, but we have to find a reason to keep going. Things will get better eventually.

Love always -- Jess

I think I will not wait for better times, but make happiness here and now, in my own little world. The problem is that my daughter and I will become hermits in a sense, but I think it's nothing, it's only temporary. The best time is the time spent with our relatives, I do not care about the rest of the world.

Quote from: Sephirah on November 09, 2024, 12:09:14 AMNo you are not crazy, Whisper. The people around you don't know you, don't know your daughter. You know that I speak from knowing you outside of this. You and Kat both. You are not crazy, honey. You are beautiful, and your little girl is beautiful... if obsessed with rap music, lol.

You see the beauty in all things, as does she. You see the good in people, and I want Kat to see the good in people, to live a life outside of what she's had to deal with. You are fireflies trapped in a jar you want to escape from.

Never, ever feel shame, Whisper. You are one of the strongest people I've ever met. <3

In hindsight, I probably wouldn't have gone down that path voluntarily. But it's been so far. A sea of tears, a lot of bruises on the body behind, indeed, with each new suffering pain is given easier, maybe this is the essence of the saying that what does not kill us makes us stronger. Any pain over time becomes too familiar, with which you get to negotiate as with an old enemy. Take care of yourself and your eyes, Katya and I will be fine, I won't let anyone hurt her.

Caring Whisper,


Merry Christmas!


Chrissy

You have some amazing paintings. Are you working with oil paints?

It's always the regular people that suffer in conflicts. Stay safe and I hope you can share more of your artwork.

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on December 24, 2024, 05:57:53 PMCaring Whisper,


Merry Christmas!


Chrissy

And Happy New Year

Hugs to all the people above.

Sephirah says that everything is cyclical, now is a hard time for everyone, a metaphorical winter, and no winter is scary if you know that spring will come after it. I would like to see lush and colorful flowers in the soul of everyone here, no matter what time of year it is. In addition, there are winter flowers, for which the cold does not interfere.

Utterly beautiful.

You have a gift. Spring will come. Like you say, we just have to get through the winter.