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Title: This is me.
Post by: michelle on May 23, 2005, 11:03:20 PM
Post by: michelle on May 23, 2005, 11:03:20 PM
I am Michelle. I am a 58 year old M to F born in South Dakota. Last know address planet earth. At the moment I am keeping most of my family life private. I am working things out emotionally and within my immediate family. Feminine feelings awoke within me when I at puberty. Before then gender did not matter to me. I always felt like the odd person out. Some how I just did not fit. I have only gotten anxiety from taking part in male activities never the big male ego burst. I was just releaved when the activity was over.
I did not have the male competitiive drive except with my younger brother. My interests centered around reading, swimming, enjoying the outdoors, religion, philosphy, history, and science. While I took part in the usual male activities of the fifties and sixties: cub scouts, boyscouts, baseball, limited hunting, football, wrestling, and basketball, I was never very successful and never got the male ego thrill from taking part. I identified more with Dale Evens than Roy Rodgers.
Female clothing was not easily available to me until I was 25, so most of my female life was in a fantacy world.
It has only the last five years of my life that I have been more open about my female identy and dressed more openly.
When I was younger I mentally decided to waite until I was older to deal with this issue. Now with all of lifes entanglements I wish that I had been able to work out my female identity as a youth before I had chosen my lifes work and been entangled with the responsibliities of family, profession, and life in general.
I did not have the male competitiive drive except with my younger brother. My interests centered around reading, swimming, enjoying the outdoors, religion, philosphy, history, and science. While I took part in the usual male activities of the fifties and sixties: cub scouts, boyscouts, baseball, limited hunting, football, wrestling, and basketball, I was never very successful and never got the male ego thrill from taking part. I identified more with Dale Evens than Roy Rodgers.
Female clothing was not easily available to me until I was 25, so most of my female life was in a fantacy world.
It has only the last five years of my life that I have been more open about my female identy and dressed more openly.
When I was younger I mentally decided to waite until I was older to deal with this issue. Now with all of lifes entanglements I wish that I had been able to work out my female identity as a youth before I had chosen my lifes work and been entangled with the responsibliities of family, profession, and life in general.
Title: Re: This is me.
Post by: beth_finallyme on May 23, 2005, 11:57:05 PM
Post by: beth_finallyme on May 23, 2005, 11:57:05 PM
hello Michelle,
I am 58 also and have been out to just one person. I have hidden and sacrificed my life for much too long. I have found it really helps me to share feelings with others here. I hope you will stay and chat with us.
much love and happiness
beth
Title: Re: This is me.
Post by: michelle on May 24, 2005, 09:42:04 AM
Post by: michelle on May 24, 2005, 09:42:04 AM
I've been around for about four years. ;D
Title: Re: This is me.
Post by: Nyssa on May 24, 2005, 01:12:59 PM
Post by: Nyssa on May 24, 2005, 01:12:59 PM
Hello Michelle
Nice to meet you.
Nyssa
Nice to meet you.
Nyssa
Title: Re: This is me.
Post by: 4years on May 24, 2005, 06:52:56 PM
Post by: 4years on May 24, 2005, 06:52:56 PM
ReHi Michelle and rewelcome!
*smile*
Michelle, I think your signature says it better than I could.
*smile*
Michelle, I think your signature says it better than I could.
Title: Re: This is me.
Post by: MsLeigh on October 30, 2024, 08:27:11 PM
Post by: MsLeigh on October 30, 2024, 08:27:11 PM
Hi Michelle,
My name is Leigh. I read your post and wanted to say hi as I too grew up in South Dakota Black Hills area. I struggled with my given male gender as far back as I can remember. These memories go back to as early as 3. My dad made a young man out of me and I lived his requirements for 40 plus years. I finally sought counseling and have chosen to start turning my life to my genuine female gender at 60. I have just started...no hrt or surgeries yet. Putting together a plan that I want to document on my blog page for my own record to reflect on. Also I'm finding the people hear a great sounding board and a resource for kind words when needed, and some stronger words too. There are resources and suggestions to accomplish goals too.
Will watch for your posts
Good marking your acquaintance,
Many hugs,
Leigh
My name is Leigh. I read your post and wanted to say hi as I too grew up in South Dakota Black Hills area. I struggled with my given male gender as far back as I can remember. These memories go back to as early as 3. My dad made a young man out of me and I lived his requirements for 40 plus years. I finally sought counseling and have chosen to start turning my life to my genuine female gender at 60. I have just started...no hrt or surgeries yet. Putting together a plan that I want to document on my blog page for my own record to reflect on. Also I'm finding the people hear a great sounding board and a resource for kind words when needed, and some stronger words too. There are resources and suggestions to accomplish goals too.
Will watch for your posts
Good marking your acquaintance,
Many hugs,
Leigh
Title: Re: This is me.
Post by: Lori Dee on October 30, 2024, 08:36:14 PM
Post by: Lori Dee on October 30, 2024, 08:36:14 PM
Quote from: MsLeigh on October 30, 2024, 08:27:11 PMI too grew up in South Dakota Black Hills area.
WHAT?
I'm in Rapid City! I moved here in 2015.
Small world.
Title: Re: This is me.
Post by: gennee on November 03, 2024, 02:13:51 PM
Post by: gennee on November 03, 2024, 02:13:51 PM
Hi Michelle and welcome