The bed room is bare I have cushions and chairs, and bright coloured covers and I'm alone.
I cook a nice meal, with taste, love and feel, and I'm alone
I drink some wine, I'm alone.
I look in the mirror, see the horror, I know why I'm alone.
I try so hard and at times my love is discard, and I'm alone
I look into their eyes, all who have tried, and I'm alone
I cry. I sob. Why am I alone?
I hold my self up
I hold true to love.
Why am I alone?
Sorry just GID wave
Love Cindy
Oh Cindy;
You're never alone. I'm here for you and send as much love your way as I can. Please, oh please, never feel alone.
Hugs always
Beth
Hi Cindy! Luv ya! Hugs, Tracey
Sweet Cindy
You're alone because your friends lives far away.
But, we're thinking about you often and we love you.
I hope this helps a little.
hugs and kisses
Annette
You're not alone Sis :-* :-* :-* There are many folks who love you including me :icon_hug: But I can empathize with you on feeling that way
I spend most of my time alone and often feel very lonely... I get filled with anxiety and depression... It bothers my appetite and sleep and kills my motivation... Like the past couple of days, I've had to make myself do things... I was tired as hell because I didn't sleep well, but I have appointments to keep and there are things that have to get done
Okay, so I make myself eat and then fall asleep either on the sofa or at my computer desk and wake up all stiff and soar and trail off to bed where I sleep a bit more and then wake up and can't go back to sleep and then become depressed, maybe even have a panic attack and get up and do something until I feel sleepy again... But then often it's time to get up and get going again
Eventually I hit burn out stage and sleep for about 12 hr.s
Quote from: annette on September 08, 2011, 07:01:41 AM
Sweet Cindy
You're alone because your friends lives far away.
But, we're thinking about you often and we love you.
I hope this helps a little.
hugs and kisses
Annette
True that... I'm sure that if we were all neighbors your place would be filled with folks till you'd be ready to run us all off :laugh:
Hugs and Kisses Sis
- Virginia
I really understand your feelings Cindy.
I know, when I felt like that, I eventually realised I was actually unfulfilled in my present situation. I then thought carefully about what it was I actually wanted.
There's an old notion that we can be alone in a crowded rom. This is true if we actually want someone to talk to and no-one is. Equally, we can be really fulfilled being physically alone.
I realised I actually like being physicaly alone, but do need to know there is someone out there who will always accept me for what I am.
I ended up marrying that one.
I realise you have problems in this area, but once you figured out what is really missing in your life, you might be better able to think about what to do about it.
Hi Cindy;
I hope this doesn't last too long for you or become too overwhelming. I'm not sure what is worse being alone or being in a crowded room... Regardless, both can feel isolating depending on what I'm feeling at the time. I hope you feel the warmth from your friends here and find a little moment of peace with yourself at home.
If it gets overwhelming we are here and maybe you could do one nice thing for yourself. Maybe a candlelit bath? Anything that helps... Well, I might have a secret stash of ice cream somewhere.
Hugs...
Hi dear Cindy,
just a nasty GID attack, never mind 'wave'. --- Don't we know them all?
When in the wringer of GID we sometimes feel we never get out of it, or will ever leave all the CRAP behind us.
Actually being alone is not such a bad state of affairs --- feeling / being LONELY sure is.
Though being alone can get scary, very scary, as we then miss our coping mechanism: "Distraction".
Distraction manages to keep us very often away from our TRUE feelings.
It can even get panicky when distractions are gone.
Nothing wrong to cry another pisspot full of tears and get in touch what it is we REALLY need.
It won't be more distraction, but all those other things we keep a lid on by using distractions.
I think of fear. Fear of staying alone... Fear -> is the absents of Love.
We often have to learn to become more vulnerable again in order to receive love.
Just what comes up from my 'well'
Axelle
Never alone, sis.. oh, and btw, sent you a PM..
Cindy I understand what you are feeling.
hugs sis :)
I know how you feel Cindy, I've been in a rut for a few days. :( Thankfully these things come and go in waves and the next high point will arrive soon. *hug*
Thanks to all of my gorgeous friends.
A bit of a GID attack.
Being cured with sleep and tea and breakfast.
Will be totally cured with meeting kelly this pm for hot chocolate
Hugs and Thank you
Cindy
Good to hear you're feeling a little better.. :)
Looking forward to chocolate this afternoon.. :)
Thanks Sis see you about 3.
Hope the rain keeps off
Cindy
Hi Cindy, This made me cry because I'm feeling the same, then I cheered up when I saw your later post. :)
Jennifer
Good Jennifer, wish you could all come for coffee with Kelly and I.
Hugs
Cindy
Wish I could, but I did just have some chocolate! ;D
Jennifer
**Hugs** glad to hear things are going a little better right now. :)
I definitely understand what you feel....been there more than once in recent days too. :-\
Good to hear you're feeling better. :)
Conversation was had, hot chocolate was drunk.. Both Cindy and Kelly seemed to have fun...
You didn't tell me there was going to be Hot Chocolate, you naughty girl! :laugh:
Glad to see you are feeling better again.
Karen.
I'd like to say something more. And i would like to say it very publicly.
I met Kelly a few years ago when she sought my advice of how to progress on this journey. At that time I met her by arrangement in a pub with a TG group. I met a remarkably frightened and (sorry Kelly) not a very good looking guy.
I met a woman today who has taken charge of her life. A nice looking woman who fits in very well. A confident woman. A friend. I did not meet a guy in a dress. We both wore jeans :laugh: I met a very nice woman who has accepted herself. We were in a busy and fantastic place, a place that makes the best hot chocolate I have experienced. We both passed totally, if not, neither of us cared, and neither did any one else.
Thanks Kelly, you gave me a boost when I was down.
And yes I went to the handbag shop - bitch :laugh:
Hugs
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on September 09, 2011, 03:29:37 AM
I'd like to say something more. And i would like to say it very publicly.
I met Kelly a few years ago when she sought my advice of how to progress on this journey. At that time I met her by arrangement in a pub with a TG group. I met a remarkably frightened and (sorry Kelly) not a very good looking guy.
That sum's it up pretty well, except that it was only a year ago that we first met.. And don't apologise - (s)he was a scared, confused and mixed up person..
QuoteI met a woman today who has taken charge of her life. A nice looking woman who fits in very well. A confident woman. A friend. I did not meet a guy in a dress. We both wore jeans :laugh: I met a very nice woman who has accepted herself. We were in a busy and fantastic place, a place that makes the best hot chocolate I have experienced. We both passed totally, if not, neither of us cared, and neither did any one else.
Thanks Kelly, you gave me a boost when I was down.
And yes I went to the handbag shop - bitch :laugh:
Hugs
Cindy
Umm, most of this bit makes me blush.. :icon_redface: Yes, the hot chocolate there is fantastic, as are most things they do. And no thanks are needed, it was my pleasure. :)
I got the top I saw.. and another one.. and a skirt.. :eusa_naughty:
Hi Cindy, I hope your feeling much better now, as you can see by all the posts, you ahve a lot of friends, too bad we don't have some form of instant transportation device that way we could see our friends even if they are half a world away.
Hang in there and have some hugs from Hawaii, aloha.
Jennie
Hey Cindy,
Glad to hear you're feeling better hun, we all have those days.
Next time I'll join you both ;)
Hugs,
Sarah
Alone but not forgotten.
i'm alone too, but i wanna make lots of friends as a girl. :icon_chick: