It feels weird going in boy mode. I need to wear a sports bra, undershirt, and one of my boyfriend's XXL t-shirts to make sure my boobs don't show. I feel insecure walking around, feeling as if people are staring at me. I know that's irrational, because people probably don't give a crap about some random person with long hair, but it took a while for that feeling to subside. This was at the grocery store.
This feeling doesn't really happen at work, since my work clothes hide everything (including hair), and I get gendered male almost 100% of the time due to fairly masculine uniforms (drives me nuts but whatever), this just happens at public, non-work places.
That ball started rolling, I guess. Tomorrow is 100% girl-mode time at therapist
The more and more changes I have on HRT and the longer my hair gets I just feel awkward presenting male.
Just be yourself, be proud of yourself, you are becomming a nice girl & soon to become a woman.
Dress the way you feel & you will do just fine with your nesessary "therapist"
Have fun.
I agree that the further we get into transition the harder it is to do boy mode or even pass in it
Even though insecurity sucks, this is actually a good thing. If you are concerned that people will see you as a girl when you are trying to present male, that really is a testament to how well you pass. I mean, if people can only see you as a women, isn't that a great sign? I imagine it can be awkward, but try to see everything as a closer step to your ultimate goal.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 15, 2013, 09:58:41 PM
Dress the way you feel & you will do just fine with your nesessary "therapist"
Oh cackling like a mad thing about the quotes around therapist. Mine seems to believe that referring to her patients as "her girls" is not at all strange in the slightest.
Rosie.
Quote from: MaidofOrleans on April 15, 2013, 08:52:06 PM
The more and more changes I have on HRT and the longer my hair gets I just feel awkward presenting male.
If that's you in the picture, I can't imagine you ever presenting as male. :)
Quote from: luna on April 17, 2013, 07:24:36 PM
If that's you in the picture, I can't imagine you ever presenting as male. :)
Yes that is me and yes I do pull it off.
Last time I tried presenting as male was about two and a half month ago? It felt really weird and I wouldn't even want to try now. Fortunately being self employed has meant I didn't have to do the whole work as a boy thing. That would have made me crazy.
This is normal. I feel the same way and is whats pushing me to FT girl mode. My steps are light, ladylike but in boy mode I walk as if I have something to hide very heavily.
Quote from: luna on April 17, 2013, 07:24:36 PM
If that's you in the picture, I can't imagine you ever presenting as male. :)
I thought the same thing Xp
Shes So Pretty!
Quote from: Kathryn on April 18, 2013, 10:01:43 AM
I thought the same thing Xp
Shes So Pretty!
Thanks.
For those curious, this is my guy mode.
Please don't quote
*image removed*
Quote from: MaidofOrleans on April 18, 2013, 11:29:32 AM
Thanks.
For those curious, this is my guy mode.
Please don't quote
You look like a fourteen-year-old! I sorta want to ruffle your hair or something. :|
^^ I was thinking the same thing.
Ya customers ask why I'm not in school...
...middle school ::)
Quote from: MaidofOrleans on April 18, 2013, 02:09:59 PM
Ya customers ask why I'm not in school...
...middle school ::)
Lol you do look awfully young