Hey there,
Not been on here much recently, so some of you may not remember me, but today (technically yesterday in England now as it's 2am) I started T. I have my first shot of Nebido. OMG I couldn't stop grinning on the train on the way home.
I had been asking a while back about whether I should stop taking the pill sooner rather than later, and if there was any length of time recommended before starting T after coming off it.
Well I am sooooooo glad (with the help of you guys) that I did.
When I went to see the specialist today I was told my bloods showed raised liver enzymes on all 3 liver function tests. One of which was more than 3 times what it was supposed to be. This meant I wouldn't be able to start today as we needed to at least figure this out, or sort it out to some degree. He thought it might have been from being on the pill for 24 years, and so the fact I stopped it nearly 2 months ago meant I was able to go straight to the lab and get another blood test done. I was able to wait around for 4 hours for the results (there's defo benefits in going private). Things had come down a fair bit, and the 2 low ones were now normal, and the higher had dropped. This meant he was happy that was the cause, so even though one was high, I got my jab there and then.
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So excited, I still can't believe it!
Congratulations my brother! As I am on HRT (Spiro and Estradiol) I know exactly how you feel. Isn't it great to be on your way. I bet you will be smiling quite a lot in the future. Keep us posted. BIG HUG!! :)
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on October 28, 2013, 09:10:40 PM
Congratulations my brother! As I am on HRT (Spiro and Estradiol) I know exactly how you feel. Isn't it great to be on your way. I bet you will be smiling quite a lot in the future. Keep us posted. BIG HUG!! :)
Thanks Jessica, yes BIG smiles here that will be hanging around for some time. :)
Good luck with your journey too :D
Big hug! Awesome news! Glad it turned out so well for you. Now you just wait for the changes. Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on October 28, 2013, 09:13:48 PM
Big hug! Awesome news! Glad it turned out so well for you. Now you just wait for the changes. Hugs, Devlyn
Thanks Devlyn. Yes so excited. After seeing so many people saying they'd just started their hormones, it feels unreal for me to be the one posting that. I don't think it's fully sunk in yet that it's happened.
Oh, don't worry, your next post will probably be "I'm all greasy and sweating like a beast. I've got backne and hair on my toes. Is this normal?" :laugh:
Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on October 28, 2013, 09:22:32 PM
Oh, don't worry, your next post will probably be "I'm all greasy and sweating like a beast. I've got backne and hair on my toes. Is this normal?" :laugh:
Hugs, Devlyn
Sure hope so!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;D ;D
This is great news. Maybe the T will work faster because you're not on the Pill. It can take quite some time for your body to self-regulate, so perhaps you will become hairy and greasy overnight. :P
Quote from: Arch on October 28, 2013, 10:13:24 PM
This is great news. Maybe the T will work faster because you're not on the Pill. It can take quite some time for your body to self-regulate, so perhaps you will become hairy and greasy overnight. :P
Hey thanks Arch. I still can't believe it. I have T in my system. :)
Quote from: androidnick on October 28, 2013, 10:41:26 PM
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! THIS IS AWESOME! Congrats man! It feels good doesn't it? You gotta show us your progress! And I can definitely imagine that grin. See? And I do remember when you started off and were figuring things out. It's so cool to see that you've found yourself Matt.
Hey Nick, thanks. I am sooooooo glad you saw this post. After the chats we've had that I've been following your progress, I was excited to tell you.
Yes it doesn't seem that long ago that I came here, knowing nothing, and really stuck with choosing a name. Everyone here has been so helpful and supportive.
So Nick, how's your progress? I'm dying to hear what changes you've had so far? Hope it's going well for you. I can't even remember how long you've been on T now? Must be what 6 weeks, or getting close to that. I'm sure your sig says but I'm on my phone and posting so can't see it. Will look after posting.
:). :)
Oh wow, so it's closer to 9 weeks Nick!!! Where'd that time go, that's mad!!!
Congrats! Welcome to the T bus... hold on tight, you're in for a wild ride! ;D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on October 29, 2013, 03:56:12 AM
Congrats! Welcome to the T bus... hold on tight, you're in for a wild ride! ;D
Thank Yooooouuuu!!!
Every time someone posts, the HUGE grin on my face gets even bigger for 5 seconds :D
Grats dude! Having T in your system must be an absolutely wonderful feeling!
Big hugs and gratz from someone else on the right side of the Atlantic! ;D
I'm on E and spiro going the other way so I wouldn't have any idea how you're feeling, but for me after a couple of days of pills it was as if they lights suddenly came on and I became interested/in charge of my life but has been quite a wild ride, good luck!! :-*
Quote from: Dalex on October 29, 2013, 04:15:21 AM
Grats dude! Having T in your system must be an absolutely wonderful feeling!
Oh yes certainly is!!! :D :D :D
It feels weird that I feel 100% normal however. It's like I feel like I should feel something, even if it's just a little off or something. It makes it hard to comprehend that what went in my butt yesterday will actually do such dramatic stuff to my body. I know it will though, just feels kind of hard to believe it.
Quote from: Kaylee on October 29, 2013, 04:35:07 AM
Big hugs and gratz from someone else on the right side of the Atlantic! ;D
I'm on E and spiro going the other way so I wouldn't have any idea how you're feeling, but for me after a couple of days of pills it was as if they lights suddenly came on and I became interested/in charge of my life but has been quite a wild ride, good luck!! :-*
Hey thanks Kaylee, and congrats with your journey too. I imagine even though the physical side of the feelings we get will be different, the emotional excitement at finally knowing your body is about to start changing in right direction for the first time must be a similar feeling.
Quote from: Mattfromengland on October 29, 2013, 04:36:15 AM
Oh yes certainly is!!! :D :D :D
It feels weird that I feel 100% normal however. It's like I feel like I should feel something, even if it's just a little off or something. It makes it hard to comprehend that what went in my butt yesterday will actually do such dramatic stuff to my body. I know it will though, just feels kind of hard to believe it.
Thank you for sharing it with us :D
You will feel the changes with time, not that I can speak from personal experience yet. A big change takes time, but I am sure that having have taken that big step to that, must be awesome. :) Looking forward to hear how it goes for you!
Quote from: Dalex on October 29, 2013, 04:48:26 AM
Thank you for sharing it with us :D
You will feel the changes with time, not that I can speak from personal experience yet. A big change takes time, but I am sure that having have taken that big step to that, must be awesome. :) Looking forward to hear how it goes for you!
Yes Dalex, your are spot on. I'm assuming you are heading towards this yourself at some point. I'm sure you'll be there before you know it, then you'll know how awesome it feels. :)
Where are you in terms of getting things started?
Quote from: Mattfromengland on October 29, 2013, 04:51:51 AM
Yes Dalex, your are spot on. I'm assuming you are heading towards this yourself at some point. I'm sure you'll be there before you know it, then you'll know how awesome it feels. :)
Where are you in terms of getting things started?
I am going to, yes. As in terms where I am? I just came out to a few friends, my sisters and my dad, the rest I am not prepared for just yet. My dad seems more excited about all of this then I am, he seems to really want a son, so that is a good thing that he is being very supportive.
The first person I came out to, was my contact person at the hospital and he wants me to speak to a therapist, which I completely understand. And then I will see where it goes from there. If I could just press that magic button, I would not hesitate xD But, it still feels great having come out, and having found this forum led me to having that courage to do so. :)
Quote from: Dalex on October 29, 2013, 05:02:19 AM
I am going to, yes. As in terms where I am? I just came out to a few friends, my sisters and my dad, the rest I am not prepared for just yet. My dad seems more excited about all of this then I am, he seems to really want a son, so that is a good thing that he is being very supportive.
The first person I came out to, was my contact person at the hospital and he wants me to speak to a therapist, which I completely understand. And then I will see where it goes from there. If I could just press that magic button, I would not hesitate xD But, it still feels great having come out, and having found this forum led me to having that courage to do so. :)
Yes I found coming out such an uplifting feeling. I guess it depends on how much support you get, I've been lucky as I've had 100% support, not everyone gets that. But it looks more likely nowadays that people understand. I'm still in the process of doing this as as of course we don't see everyone we know frequently. I'm also self employed so am working my way through the clients as and when I am able to. So far most of the people around me on a day to day basis know though and it's such a relief to be able to be me.
I think the therapist is a good idea. I saw a video of my specialist many years ago talking about this and explaining that no matter how supportive and helpful those around you are, there's always going to be around 80% of their own agenda in whatever they say to you. Where as if you see a counsellor it's always 100% your own agenda. If you have a good one that you are comfortable with then you can also discuss lots of things that you feel uncomfortable with with people you know. It's just a good release, and if they are a gender counsellor, the experience they have will mean they can help you through any niggly emotional worries or problems you have as they've seen it all before and can draw upon their experience of seeing what helped others in that same situation.
Sounds like your Dad is fantastic!!!!!! Good on him!!! :)
Quote from: Mattfromengland on October 29, 2013, 05:16:34 AM
Yes I found coming out such an uplifting feeling. I guess it depends on how much support you get, I've been lucky as I've had 100% support, not everyone gets that. But it looks more likely nowadays that people understand. I'm still in the process of doing this as as of course we don't see everyone we know frequently. I'm also self employed so am working my way through the clients as and when I am able to. So far most of the people around me on a day to day basis know though and it's such a relief to be able to be me.
I think the therapist is a good idea. I saw a video of my specialist many years ago talking about this and explaining that no matter how supportive and helpful those around you are, there's always going to be around 80% of their own agenda in whatever they say to you. Where as if you see a counsellor it's always 100% your own agenda. If you have a good one that you are comfortable with then you can also discuss lots of things that you feel uncomfortable with with people you know. It's just a good release, and if they are a gender counsellor, the experience they have will mean they can help you through any niggly emotional worries or problems you have as they've seen it all before and can draw upon their experience of seeing what helped others in that same situation.
Sounds like your Dad is fantastic!!!!!! Good on him!!! :)
Yeah, that is what I thought as well. Counselors and therapists are there to help you, help you, as my friend worded it to me once. I have known this for a very, very long time, but I already feel that much better, not only coming out to others, but coming out to myself.
And my dad is! He has even asked me to check out how much a name change costs, and has told me to let him know what name I choose when I have found one so that he can call me by that name. He even called me a he, well only once, but hearing that was so great.
Quote from: Dalex on October 29, 2013, 06:22:05 AM
Yeah, that is what I thought as well. Counselors and therapists are there to help you, help you, as my friend worded it to me once. I have known this for a very, very long time, but I already feel that much better, not only coming out to others, but coming out to myself.
And my dad is! He has even asked me to check out how much a name change costs, and has told me to let him know what name I choose when I have found one so that he can call me by that name. He even called me a he, well only once, but hearing that was so great.
Ah yes, your Dad sounds great. What country are you in? If you're in the UK I can advise on the name change. I suspect you're in the US though?
Quote from: Mattfromengland on October 29, 2013, 06:23:55 AM
Ah yes, your Dad sounds great. What country are you in? If you're in the UK I can advise on the name change. I suspect you're in the US though?
I'm actually closer to the UK then to the US if I remember correctly. I'm in Iceland :P My dad suggested that I should try to play around with the name I already have, but I am not really sure you can get a male name from Linda....
Quote from: Dalex on October 29, 2013, 06:30:08 AM
I'm actually closer to the UK then to the US if I remember correctly. I'm in Iceland :P My dad suggested that I should try to play around with the name I already have, but I am not really sure you can get a male name from Linda....
Hmmm, I had that problem too. I wanted something similar so it still felt like me. There was nothing really so decided I'd keep the same initial of S, but still wasn't happy. I tried Steve and thought about Sam. Then I thought sod it forget S and found Matthew. It just felt right and then all of a sudden my old name felt horrible.
I've also found that having new bank cards etc, it's actually quite nice to have something different, so you actually feel like something has changed. I hadn't really thought of that, but now I'm glad I'm an M instead of S.
Might be something to think about. And yeah, try the names out. I tried them on here and changed it when needed. Obviously everyone on here understands why you're doing it, so it's fine to do that. It really gives you a feeling when you sign a post off in your name whether it feels right or not.
I don't know what the laws are in Iceland I'm afraid.
Quote from: Mattfromengland on October 29, 2013, 06:56:51 AM
Hmmm, I had that problem too. I wanted something similar so it still felt like me. There was nothing really so decided I'd keep the same initial of S, but still wasn't happy. I tried Steve and thought about Sam. Then I thought sod it forget S and found Matthew. It just felt right and then all of a sudden my old name felt horrible.
I've also found that having new bank cards etc, it's actually quite nice to have something different, so you actually feel like something has changed. I hadn't really thought of that, but now I'm glad I'm an M instead of S.
Might be something to think about. And yeah, try the names out. I tried them on here and changed it when needed. Obviously everyone on here understands why you're doing it, so it's fine to do that. It really gives you a feeling when you sign a post off in your name whether it feels right or not.
I don't know what the laws are in Iceland I'm afraid.
I think I just might try that. It seems I did something similar as a kid. When I met someone new, I would introduce myself with a male name since most assumed I was a boy anyways. First it was Dennis, then an icelandic boys name Lárus, and then it was Devon. I think I might like something different as my initial, like you said, a new name for the new you. But we will see! For now I will just be called Dalex till I can find a name that will suit me. ;)
Yes, try out different ones. A lot of people have said they knew when they found the right one and yes it was certainly like that for me. Before that I felt lost with it and really stuck, feeling like that would never happen with me. But it did.
Thanks Matt :) I surely will do that, try out a few names till I find the one that suits me :)
Quote from: Dalex on October 29, 2013, 03:41:01 PM
Thanks Matt :) I surely will do that, try out a few names till I find the one that suits me :)
Hope you figure it out soon :)